Great thread Anastasia 😊
In my younger years, I used to be in the Cub Scouts and then the Scouts for many years. We went camping several times a year which is something I really looked forward to. My family weren't rich by any means but we did manage to purchase a small caravan and did at least one trip a year to various places around England and Scotland.
Finally, at the age of 19 I decided to take my first steps outside of the UK and applied to work on a kibbutz in Israel, that story you will find in
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I spent a total of 15 month living there.
On one of the kibbutzim, I met a Swedish girl who subsequently became my wife a year later. We went to Sweden and then back to the UK, but our yearning to return to Israel meant that we went back again in 1990, from London to Haifa overland by bus! This story I will cover some other time in one of my future blogs.
Then ol' Saddam got delusions of grandeur which had both sets of parents demanding that we come home before all hell broke loose in the Middle East. I subsequently moved to Sweden where I spent 9 years of my life.
We made a few European trips during this time, but my wife finally decided to break her marriage vows, went Jehovah on me and we finally divorced in 2005. Shortly after this, I met a wonderful girl who was admittedly, much too young for me, but we got along so well, that I decided to give it a go.
Having got divorced I took virtually nothing from my old house being as I had two children who at that time were still under 18 and there was no way I was going to break up their home. Having to go through the pain and heartache of a divorce was enough for them (My father walked out on us when I was 12 so I know how it feels).
Anyway, my new girlfriend and I started to build a home together from scratch and after 2 years of hard work and graft we finally had a beautiful apartment which we shared so happily together and a good home where my children could come and stay with us at the weekend. Then, just as I was getting some stability back into my life after my divorce and everything started to feel 'perfect', the rug was pulled out from under my feet and she left me.
I'd never felt so much pain in my life and one night, a few weeks after she left, I drank about 20 bottles of beer, a whole litre of vodka and threw every tablet I could find in the house down my throat in an attempt to relieve myself of my agony. Thankfully, my landlord found me and got me to hospital in time.
I can't believe that I was so stupid. I love life so much and would never ever normally consider doing something like that. I had always been such a strong person, someone who had always been a shoulder for everyone else to cry on, yet it is at moments like this where you realise that you are only human and that we all have weaknesses just waiting there in the wings, ready to hit you where it really hurts and when you least expect it.
I have always been a very confident, outward going person, even before this incident, however, I feel that it was that moment of my life that has set in stone, how I will live the rest of my life, by making the most of every day, enjoying life as much as I can and of course, most importantly, travelling and seeing as much of this beautiful world of ours as possible.
Not having been born with a silver spoon in my mouth I have had to fight for everything and work hard to obtain the life that I have always wanted. Even now, I still sometimes have to struggle to do the things that I want but at least I know that when I do travel, I appreciate it so much more simply because I have worked so hard for it.
I like to think of travel as an expression of individualism and something that each of us experiences in different ways. I know I've said this before, but I feel that I can't emphasise enough that as human beings, we are the sum of our experiences and the real riches in life are those that we acquire on our journey through life and not those that we horde away in vaults or bank accounts.
[Edited: 2012 Jan 04 01:44 - Cockle:46288 ]
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