Covid 19 diary - Saturday - another week has gone by. Rain most days but sunny this morning for a while . Will today be much different to yesterday? I guess it will . Saturday used to be shopping day . Long since moved to Wednesday it has now become cleaning day. The sun was streaming through the window. The windscreen man could have come today but I guess he has Saturday off. Let's hope the clear weather holds until Tuesday for him to sort Gabby out. As I lay there in bed waiting to force myself out for my walk I found myself tangling with the idea of "if" and "what if?" If you had told me in January I would not be going on holiday in May I would have laughed at you. We ... read more

Day 89 - Imprisoned , trapped , prevented from going for a walk today. Gaoled . Incarcerated. All those words applied today. I have felt trapped before but somehow this morning it felt ten one hundred times worse . I knew before I even got up I was going nowhere . I could hear the rain already. Under the bedclothes it just sounded like a gentle patter . Reality was something very very different . A leaden sky that looked heavy with rain . Would a pregnant filled to the belly with rain sound a better metaphor for what I could see? I knew my walk was in jeopardy before I even got one foot out of bed. Over a long lingering breakfast - porridge for the driver . Nothing for me but a long stretched ... read more

Weather awful - rain overnight and mist. Another day of not seeing an inch in front of your nose What to do today ? Well it is not a working day so I guess I can do what I want to do. Something or nothing. It did not really matter at all. Has Covid 19 made me feel like that ? So what to do ? Lie in bed or get up . A quick look at the clock suggested it was later than yesterday mornings early morning wake up call. It was 6.15. Should I get up and walk or lie here a bit longer? What does my calendar tell me? - I turn over and look at it . It is one of those deep ones that mean that I need to think. Too ... read more

Sunday morning - Day 85 - "Accept everything just the way it is " - Miyamoto Musashi. That was what I ripped off my calendar this morning. Today was another of those dank grey old days . Just the same as yesterday. It was hard to feel that I wanted to accept everything just the way it is. When the sun shines you feel better . When the weather is not pleasant then it is a whole different thing . I don't know about you but the longer the lockdown goes on the harder it seems to accept it. I know it is for my own good but somehow at the back of my mind I feel enough is enough . I want life to return to something like normal . And that seems as if ... read more

A pox on Covid 19 - there you I have said it . A pox on Covid 19. I have wanted to say that for a few months now and now it is said . Makes me feel better - yes it does . Today Day 83. " Flow with whatever happens , stay centred on accepting whatever you are doing " so said Zhuangzi . So here goes again - A pox on Covid 19. A pox for starting in the first place . A pox on it for stopping life in its tracks . Trying to flow with whatever happens is Ok for a while but eventually you get fed up with the flow and want and need something different. A challenge in your life . A pox on Covid for preventing movement . ... read more