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Published: June 17th 2020
Weather awful - rain overnight and mist. Another day of not seeing an inch in front of your nose
What to do today ? Well it is not a working day so I guess I can do what I want to do. Something or nothing. It did not really matter at all. Has Covid 19 made me feel like that ?
So what to do ? Lie in bed or get up . A quick look at the clock suggested it was later than yesterday mornings early morning wake up call. It was 6.15. Should I get up and walk or lie here a bit longer?
What does my calendar tell me? - I turn over and look at it . It is one of those deep ones that mean that I need to think. Too early to think . Perhaps later . After I have got up . I force myself out and have another look out of the window . Same view as last time . Still as gloomy as ever.
Rained last night . Yes same as night before .. Same tomorrow I think. "You getting up for your walk" came the voice from
alongside me . . "Don't know" . "Don't fancy it" "Cannot be bothered " . Think I will stay in bed a bit longer. Will Bojo of the mad scientist haircut give me any good news today .? I need good news . Just a tiny bit . A morsel of good news.
5 minutes later . Look out of the window Still wet . Still damp . Still uninviting . Must move . Turn over. Instead I lie there a bit longer . 13 weeks has been a long time . Motivation down the pan today . I was full of motivation months ago . Now well it was time to look out of the window again . If I walk where will I go? The brain kicks in - as a two way conversation starts between me and myself . " Don't you want breakfast - a cup of tea or a strong black coffee just to set you up for the day" . "No brain I dont eat breakfast" ." But perhaps someone else wants his breakfast " . Leg out of bed . Test the water . The only way to shut myself up is
to get up and knuckle down and get on with the day. It might turn sunny this afternoon . That is what happened yesterday. It might be the same today.
10 minutes later dressed and the kettle is on. The oven is filled with pain a chocolate . Not for me you understand . I just will drink that hot strong cup of very espresso . I look at the calendar again . Nah not today . It does nothing for me . I keep looking at it and it does not do anything to urge me on.
30 minutes later I am out and about . I think my neighbours are all indoors . I am walking alone. Even the birds are hiding out of the way. The weather is grim and they don't want to join me on our walk . Today I turned right and walked down the hill. Down Birken Lane. It is a walk I have done many times . My phone does not click much today. Until the sun comes out and the late summer flowers bloom there is little to photograph . Photograph - to take a photograph - other languages seem to say that in a different way. In Welsh it is tynnu llun - you pull a picture . I could find nothing to pull on my walk .
Home and coffee , the usual sit down . Tomorrow work so I make the most of catching up with housework . We listen to the PM telling us that a silver bullet has been found . He gives us one of those good news sandwiches . A new drug works . However the reality is that it is not a new drug but an old steroid that can be bought for a few pounds . It seems to woke and lives can be saved . Is this the silver bullet that saves us ? It will be a long haul finding out.
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