Canda left me devastated. Now I can't live my life the way I used to.


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April 17th 2014
Published: May 3rd 2014
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There were two Korean girls sent to Canada by their father to study. He expected that after finishing their studies they will return home and have successful careers in Korea. The girls finished college, got jobs in Vancouver and became permanent residents of Canada. Their father was so depressed. Things didn't go according to his plan. The daughters felt guilty for their fathers depression. Sent him a ticket to Vancouver and enrolled him in a language school to learn English for one year. As his last day in Canada approached he told his daughters "I now know why you don't want to go back. It's okay. I understand now".

It was my last day and I felt so sad to be leaving. On the way back to BC from Alberta I was homesick and wanted to go home. I missed work. Having a regular routine and being surrounded by people who know me. On my last day however, I didn't want to leave. I fell in love with Canada. I wanted to make the most out of my last day. See my favorite park. See a few new sites. Take pictures of the cherry blossoms and see downtown Vancouver one last time. I would LOVE to go back but it would be expensive to do this every year. And if I was going to spend that much money, half of me is saying that I should spend it to see another country. "Go to Europe! You might like it more!" And part of me is saying "There is no better place. You will only be disappointed if you go anywhere else thats not clean and stunning"

There's so much that I want to see in the world but I love Vancouver. I apologize for the cliche but it really felt like home! I felt that I belong there. It's the only place I've been so far that made me feel "This is me. I belong here." But I don't and it breaks my heart.

I went to Top of Vancouver. It's a revolving restaurant. Yes it is expensive but I thought it would be a perfect goodbye. You just have to blow your budget sometimes. I'm glad I made that choice. It was indeed perfect. The restaurant completes one revolution in 60 minutes. I did get a little dizzy at first. It was still daylight when I arrived. Dark when I left. So I saw the city in different settings. The city looks so beautiful at night. The white tent that is Canada Place looks so lovely illuminated in blue. It is set against the harbor with its ships and ferry's. Further north you'd see the mountains. In the opposite side the skyscrapers look pretty when lit up.

Presents for family, colleagues at work and friends were bought the previous day. I maximized the 42KG allowance for check in baggage. Those 42KG were all presents for people back home! It's mostly just food that I bought from Costco and some clothes and shoes from Winners and the outlet stores in Queensborough. I've decided to be a little more generous this time because I felt so blessed. It's Filipino tradition to give presents and chocolates are expected when coming from the US, Canada, Europe and Japan. I also bought a lot of things that I was curious about. I've never had figs before so I bought some. The others were peanut butter, Nutella, cookies, toys etc. I was driven to the airport by the family that I went to Whistler park with. ALL of them came with me.
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went here before going to the revolving restaurant.
I really appreciated it because I was feeling so depressed to be leaving. Plus I had three suitcases a backpack and a big paper bag. I obviously needed help.

The attendant at the check in counter said I had too many carry on luggage and I had to leave one. The backpack, paper bag and small suitcase were my carry on. The two big suitcases with the presents I checked in. I said I'd leave the paper bag with two big toy trucks that I bought for my nephew. I said it but I didn't mean it! I brought those trucks with me inside anyway and hoped that that guy who said no won't be there in the departure check. He was there but he was far at the back. I think he saw me with the paper bag as I boarded the plane but he let it slide. I got those trucks from a second hand store for $4 each. I knew my five year old nephew would love them so I was willing to go through all that trouble.

I saw a vendo machine in the airport that sells Apple products. I wonder if the machine
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went here before going to the revolving restaurant.
drops the iPads to the bottom where you pick it up like the regular vendo machines. I didn't see anybody buying anything.

After 13 or 14 hours I was back in the Philippines. I've never been so sad to be back home. In fact I was devastated. It was so bad that I had to call friends to tell them how depressed I was. Canada showed me things that I can never have! Beautiful gardens that look manicured even when they're not. Cities that are unpolluted where you don't have to watch your back and put a lock on your backpack. Stunning scenery that changes with the season. Disciplined drivers. Shopping in outlet stores. Fair economic opportunities for everybody. You don't have to work that hard and have luck on your side all the time to live a comfortable life in Canada. Even people who work in McDonalds can buy a car!

I've always pictured my life here in the Philippines. That I'd grow old here. I longed to visit other countries but just for sightseeing. Canada changed that. I can't see myself living here anymore. Even being an ordinary person in Canada trumps being rich in the Philippines. I know a lot of Filipinos would hate me for saying this but this is the truth to me. I never realized how poor we are and how difficult it is to survive in the Philippines until I went to Canada. Having money in a place where you don't feel safe, where it takes 45 minutes to drive five kilometers because of traffic and where the government cannot be depended on is not a desirable life to live. My dreams and goals have changed.

I don't know how yet but I need to leave. I need to find a way out soon.


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3rd May 2014

Fabulous experience!
Im so glad you had a wonderful time, but i go with... Dont stop there! There are si many anazing countries but see what countries the phillipines might have working holiday visa schemes with and apply. Ive lived in th UK and USA and back home in Aust now but wld happily mive anywhere for a try :) good luck and let us know how you go, tam
3rd May 2014

Thanks Tam!
We have working holiday agreement with new zealand. I dont know the others yet. I've been thinking about it but its scary to leave a stable job! I think mostly because i feel underqualified and overpaid for the one I have now. But I will look into it more and muster up more courage to take a leap of faith. Cheers!
4th May 2014

My dreams and goals have changed.
Beautiful blog. Having followed this trip with your heart on your sleeve I feel not only do I relate to what you share...but I relate to you. I will now press follow and look forward to further developments. I feel there are further chapters in your story to follow.
4th May 2014

thanks Dave!
You have a way with words. Thats really sweet. Thanks for the follow :)
5th May 2014

Really enjoyed this blog entry. I have felt these exact feelings being in a new country and returning home. However, my home is Canada... and I will always be grateful for that. Thanks for all of your positive words about Canada, and come visit again!
5th May 2014

thanks!
Im pretty sure ill be back :)
6th May 2014

Best of Luck
My heart felt your confusion. Its not a choice to be born in one country but it is a choice as to what country you fall in love with the most. I was born in America, and although I appreciate all the freedoms of being American, my heart stay overseas in Italy. My family, my husband and friends remind me I am an American but my heart is totally European. Thank you for sharing your blogs. I'm happy you had wonderful people along with you. Best wishes!!
20th May 2014

There's no place like home...
Please don't torment yourself. See the contrasts of both countries and be pleased you now know them. That is what travel is all about, broadening your mind and re-energizing your life goals!
20th May 2014

thanks andrea
Still have a lot to think of and perhaps more countries to visit to help me make up my mind
16th August 2017

I feel you...
I was directed to your site after browsing for tips on US Visa application. I could not help reading your experience in Canada. I was just there for a three-week vacation and returned last week. I also fell in love with its beauty (Oh those Canadian Rockies, Stanley Park and Granville Island), the discipline, and the politeness of the people. I would love to experience it again but during fall to see the foliage of maple trees... ???
17th August 2017

I feel you
I want to see fall in Canada too! I've been back three more times after this trip but never in the fall. That's something to look forward to

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