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Published: June 20th 2007
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When I look out over the railing I find it impossible to believe that I am floating so far from shore. The horizon is a blank slate, melting seamlessly from sky to sea into a darkness that is intangible. I feel the opposite of powerful while somehow filled with the false overconfidence of someone too drunk for judgment. I am days from everything I know and understand. I am lost and finding myself at the same time. Deep within me I am aware of the splashing of something new; I can feel the water rising up against the walls of this vessel; I can sense myself hovering beyond my own recognition.
The purpose of such self-gratification is not something I have yet grasped. I am locked in wanderlust that eats at me from every angle, each breath caught upon the possibilities of someday. I am forever floating from shore, wanting to chart undiscovered waters, yet hesitant to lose sight of solid ground. It is like pieces of me are scattered everywhere and I am desperate to collect them all, so that someday I might be whole again.
Tonight I cannot see land, but somehow I do not feel lost. Simultaneously in motion and frozen to the moment, I am caught in a stillness I haven’t felt for years. Sliding into dark waters, I am fleetingly at peace with the silence of my velocity.
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Emily
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I've always said you should be a writer....I'm just waiting for me to be right. Love you.