stupid cows

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i rememeber like a month before grad, i had decided that i wouldnt go to uni or anything, and i would move back to africa and spend my days surfing and lying in the sun while boozing my brains out ever single night while frequently taking trips to exotic places and visiting all over the world. so i spent my summer doing nothing, while everyone was busy prepping to go off to school, i spent most of my time lounging outside pool side relaxing the days away and partying to downtown toronto and tripping it over to niagra falls for high roller weekends gambling at the fallsview casino and partying VIP at dragonfly. as the year went on, i dated around a bit, went on the odd trips and continued to bask in the bliss of doing what ever i wanted. pasquale bagel breakfast on bloor street with the girls. cantina charlies clubb nights. random road trips. my 19th bday, absolute madness. never have i ever been so drunk in my whole life. although it wasnt that glamorous, all dolled up and slopping back shots and martini's at sharkeys on a monday night with my 5 besties. but it was still amazing! lol even my little bro made it out to the celebration. getting back to my place at 3am with laur, going to sleep then having to get up at 430am to catch our flight to dominican. lol, still PISSED drunk and not packed yet. my mom giving me a chat in the car to the airport about how i stick of booze and the ppl wouldnt let me on the plane if they knew how drunk i was. lauren pissing laughing in the back. lol. and for the whole drive to the airport me telling my mom i had learned my lesson and although i was now offically legal to drink, i promised i would never drink again. getting to the airport. that painfully hungover flight there. and then landing in paradise. i think we were in domins and inside checking into the resort, and with 5 mins we had 4 drinks in our hands. and our room couldnt have been any farther away from everything. fuck. the week is a blur with tequila, oriental resturants, week long boyfriends, seducing bartenders and DJ, stealling bottles from the bar, avoiding 'the 13yr old whale' and frolicking on the beach. loved it. trips to the carribean are my favs, perfect birthday retreats. when the summer came around again, i started to think more seriously about finally going on my trip all over the world, cause the past year had been awsome doing nothing. but i felt like maybe i should spend the next few years doing something. even tho i had graduated, i decided to spend that 2nd semester taking law, economics and world issues. i probly only went to class like 2 times a week, but i was still doing really really well. surprisingly. like a month and a halfish into the semester i decided i didnt want to go anymore and i would drop all my course. the worldissue teacher was a douche and said good ridance (he was pissed i was never in class but still doing well) the law teacher, loved her, and she was sad to see me go and thought i 'had a natural ability for law study', the economics teacher, wat a stupid fucking cow. she was also pissed i was never in class but doing well either. but she decided to have a chat with me about it
she grilled me, wat did i plann on doing with my life, why was i 19, not in university and now dropping more courses, was i going to be a bum forever, when was i going to grow up and take some responsibility.
i probably shouldnt of, but i did anyways, i just said im going to live life how ever i wanted to and it is none of her buisness what i chose to do with my life, whats it to her?
i was asked to leave. lol
later that year, after everyone had now come back from Uni and the summer partying was in full swing. even my lovely laur had come back from BC for some festivitys. one night after just planning on having a quiet drinking night, me her our BF's and ells. we asked my mom to whip us over to finnigans. while boozing it at our table i was chatting to some girlies that were visiting some one they went to school with in guelph, there is no need to name names. and when they asked me what uni i went too and i said i didnt go anywhere. they looked SHOCKED. when they asked me what id done this last year, and i said nothing really, jsut having fun and enjoying life. they were even more shocked. one of the girls started cutting into me too. grilling me, why am i wasting my time doing nothing, travling is pointless, you cant learn anything doing that that you cant learn in uni, did i ever plan on growing up and taking responsibility in my life. and i thought again. what the fucks it to you? shove it
i dont get why other people are so concerned with other people growing up or lack of. i like being immature and doing whatever. i still have responsibilties and goals and all that stuff, im just doing it at my own pace, if i feel like it, and when ifeel like it, ill do it.
i think im just very irritated today. but its just always been something thats really pissed me off, those 2 cows especially.
this past year, traveling and everything, has been so so so amazing. and i wouldnt have changed it or rather done anything else. im glad i did, and idont care if because of my travels i only end up graduating from school when im 30, then so be it. atleast ive enjoyed my life.
seen and done things that some people might never even have the option too. im gona take advantage of every oportunity i have. why waste it.

and too those 2 cows, althought you would probly never appriticate the beauty of watching the sunset from various beaches all over the world, or playing with wild horses, getting drunk off warm red wine at the top of a mountian, having cocktails for breakfast, swimming naked in the ocean. staying awake all night to watch and look for shooting stars, or learning to make Voors.
i hope you enjoy your life, cause when you look at me and turn up your nose, ill popp you the middle finger, and go on enjoying mine.

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