complicatedness...is my new word

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so it's 2 am here and i'm still awake. lots of things to think about...what does the future hold for me? sometimes it's a risk of security to hope for something better. tonight it's officially, official--i'm a single lady. i know it's right. i know that it was God's will...time has to pass for me to feel better. but right now it just hurts. I hurt and I feel completely helpless.

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