Day 1: I want to quit. There’s no way anybody should be put through this. I want to quit, I want to quit, please let me quit. 10 hours of meditation everyday? No talking, no reading, no writing, no eye contact, no yoga, no music, no humming, no whistling… this is suffering. I want to quit, this is ridiculous that we have to wake up at 4 every morning and meditate for two straight hours! Oh my Buddha, I can’t believe I have ten more days to go, please, I want to run away! Haha, this thought came up on the first day of my second hour of meditation. I had so much doubt swirling around in my head and I had nobody to boost my confidence. I was up in the mountains of Nepal
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