No adventure here

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Heya everyone
Well, life in Ouaga has officially become "normal". I'm bored. I know it sounds crazy since it's all so different and everything, but really, it's getting a bit old. I'm tired of living in the company guest house because I feel like I'm a teenager living with my parents again. (sorry, Mom and Dad, but we all knew it was better that I moved out!). I feel guilty if I crawl in at 2 or 3am, for no good reason. I'm a grown up, dammit! I had a friend over today for dinner and we were watching TV, and I was worried about my roomate if he came home if he'd be pissed. You know? This set-up certainly isn't a long-term thing for me. And what if I found a boyfriend here? I realize the chances of this happening are so small it's laughable, but let's just pretend for a moment I did. What then? You can't cuddle on the couch watching TV cuz it's rude to PDA in front of a work colleague that you happen to live with. So then you're stuck in your room all the time if you want any privacy, so it looks like you're shagging all the time! I guess that's not such a bad thing... but still not true. I think if I were to stay here it would have to be in a cute little apartment like some of my friends have. Their lifestyle makes me think so much of living in Ottawa with the LK and I think it would make me so much happier than the ultra-domesticated setup I have now. Even when my friends and I go out, it's always to the same couple of places that are getting really dull. There isn't much variety of food, and if I eat one more Italian-style Paradisio pizza, I'll scream!

Work is going well, but the honeymoon is over and it's just "work" now, to be dreaded like every other job. I'm not as productive, because I feel drained, even though I just came back from holiday. Something is clearly wrong here. I was looking forward to coming back to Toronto for a bit, but now it seems that trip will likely be cancelled. I was thinking some big hugs and some home cookin' might fix the problem!

So I guess life just continues, no matter where you are. Everything -even something totally different and exciting- becomes normal and boring eventually. I'm sure this is disappointing (but not surprising) to my readers back home. It sure is disappointing here. But I guess that's how we know that this is what our life has become. Wasn't I complaining at one point about needing routine? Well, I got it in spades!

Anyway, I am sure everyone feels this way sometimes. It's funny because you don't expect to be bored when you're on a great adventure, but I'm sure even the greatest explorers didn't get excitement EVERY day. I'll grin and bear it for now, and hope to see you all soon.

Best to you all,
-Brownie

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Comments

[mom]

well at least there's no snow!!!!! :-)

[Catherine]

Miss you!
Hey Brownie! It'll get better soon. Do you really think your trip back here will be cancelled? That's so crappy; I'd really like to visit you if you make it down. Love you! Catherine :)