me sex,her pain

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i might dissapoint alfio n friends, but.
xie oftn wrote, apologizin n stuff. of course i dont trust. no feelin 4 her, no trust, no respect. but.
am horney. still have 10 days china. wrote. u want, we have sex, animal style. if u want, come, if not, not.
she comes.
saw watchmen.1 of best superhero movies.
i ask myself: why police dont clean city of all these swindlers n cheaters.1y ice cream 4 3y. this fake antic shop.replace fake n swindlers n nivel ll climb.tourist ll thank u 4 it.
we r d slaves of our mind. we must superate our mind.
yangshuo.lookin at d bars d foreigners use.kaya, lonley planet recomendat stuff. backpackers, mo cool tahn me. but mo xies stuff. 4 fishin.i cant go there.i buy cheapest beer in d supermarket, listn 2 mp3.these r d guys that buy i must sell 2. am r apearance. i am. ...sorry. stupid. but. ...understand?
3rd beer. i feel: am d real punk. i hate bars, socialisin with... wanna bs?but who can me mo wanna b than nme?
2 drunk. 2morrow mo. better.
i wanna deepen phicology.
1 thin: nothin, NOTHIN, happens as i plan.all, ALL, comes different.
theres nothin i can tell u. eminem is d man. listn 2 his words, hes d man, him, nitsche,jesus,ramana maharashi,dostoyevski. theres men with brain, soul. i just search... what em have found.
beer, hiphop on mp3.nacked xie sleepin next me. nothin good in tv.hotel, night.nannin.
marta, if u could c me.am asshole. all time spit in her face, spittin out d flemma, d illness, she gives mespittin in her face my pain, my brocken ego,spittin hate,anger,dislike. made her read 2 me her blog.d how she would have liked 2 travel with em. she cry, sayin it was only a time of weakness. i can give her no mo joy, repeat em 2 her.wake her, sleepin,askin bout em, makin her cry. fuck her, yeah, fuck her animal style. all time leave her, then i say, ok,i give u 1 mo day.
i cant understand why she accept such humilation,sufferin. she really likes me? or autopunishes herself, she still have hope i travel with her?or better me n this than nobody n nothin?
i cant sleep lately.
truth: sometimes allmost go soft. she swears: only i was important, em,bla,bla,bla.
eminem sings:" yeah we fuck bitch, so what?... thats so far as yr body goes...i dont wanna flip when i c u with guys...females lie....we just met n i just fucked u...."
anyway. got soft.started 2 kiss her, hug her, smile at her.b sweet 2 her.
2morrow ll receive visa, 2morrow i go. vietnam.
good bye xie.

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Comments

[afrovictor]

which country?
Where is it? they eat cat?

[hmtm]

its china.yep, seems so.