Tough Decisions


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Published: July 30th 2009
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Kallie and I pose in front of our new apartment building directly across the street from the school!
Wow. It's been a tough couple of days.

Walt ended up surprising me and showing up my first night here. It was great to see him, but to be honest, was also a little weird. It was like looking into the eyes of a stranger. I hadn't seen him in over a year. 2 years we have been apart (with the exception of a 2 week visit) and so it was like dating again for the first time.

The stress of finding a place to live as well as figuring out what was going on with Walt and I was truly making me sick. I didn't sleep well at all the first night, and barely ate for a 24 hour period. Walt and I have always prided ourselves on our communication and honesty, so I told him exactly how I was feeling all along. In the end, we decided the pressure of living together was too much right now. We thought it would be best if Walt went back to Comayagua and I stayed here. For at least this first year, it will be better to start things fresh and go back to dating. If things work out, we
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can always try living together in year 2. If things don't work out, at least we have already made a step towards making it easier to be apart.

The whole situation has not been easy. It's been a huge decision for both of us - one that I second guessed this morning when I thought about how much I would miss having him around all the time. In the end, that thought was what solidified the decision - time apart (yet still in the same country and able to see each other every couple weeks) will help me build back the relationship that I somehow feel has been lost.

Poor Walt. He has been SO understanding about it all. He has given up so much to be here, yet has been so patient and accommodating. He did call me this afternoon in tears, which finally showed that he's human and he's hurting. I too have had days full of tears but we both think this is what's best at this time.

In happier news, I've found an apartment. There is a building RIGHT across the street from the school and there were 2 apartments available, so Kallie (a Texan who will be teaching elementary art) and I have decided to live in the same building in these apartments. They are 2 bedrooms each - one master and one small single (great for guests!) yet still in the price range that the school is giving us allowance for. We made try to talk the price down a bit before we sign the contract tomorrow, but we may still have to pay a bit out of our salary in order to pay the utilities, but overall it's a GREAT little place. It's not too big but also perfect for the chance that Walt and I do decide to live together next year. It'll be nice to have Kallie in the building with me, as well as many other teachers also within walking distance of the school who will be around for company. Will also be great to (for the first time EVER!) have my own place with my own space.

I don't think the apartments are available until at least Monday, so we will have to stay in the hotel in the meantime, but can't wait to start moving things in and making it my own. I will be sure to take lots of photos to post.

We also had a tour of the school today and I am beyond excited. IT'S HUGE! There is so much space and beautiful facilities. The staff are all so friendly and helpful. The classrooms remind me of typical rooms back home, and the open space and green fields for the kids to run around is a huge step up from EBH.

Although it's been a rough couple of days trying to figure out my relationship as well as hunting for hours through apartments, I'm getting super excited about the possibilities that these years will bring. I'm happy to be back in the beautiful weather with a gorgeous mountainous view. I'm being brave and doing what I feel is best for me at this moment. Everything else should fall into place.

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31st July 2009

All the best
Sounds like things are starting to come together for you. That's great!!!! Keep us informed as to all your new adventures this year. Have fun and enjoy life to it's fullest. Love you and I will be waiting to hear from you. Uncle Wayne
1st August 2009

Miss you and wish you all the best!
HI Sarah... so exciting to hear about your new apartment and how things are going. I love reading your blogs and will look forward to them every (?) morning with my coffee. It will make me feel that you are not so far away. I know that some things aren't easy right now but it sounds like you are handling them so well and with sense and maturity. We will keep thinking good thoughts for you and for Walter, no matter what the outcome. Love, Aunt Kathryn
2nd August 2009

All the best enjoy
Hi Sarah Sounds like you will have a lot of new adventures this year. New school, living on your own and deciding about your future with Walter. You will also be meeting new people and making new friends. Whatever you do make sure it is what you want. I will be thinking about you. Love Auntie Barbara

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