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Published: December 17th 2014
This time the blog post might not be as jolly and cheer-full as usual. But that’s how it is sometimes. I think this one is more for myself, to put it on black and white, to simplify it and to make it easier to see that, that specific moment is not that bad. It’s just in my mind. The last 2 days I have been in a down place (I can now see that it was only my mind playing tricks with me). It happens from time to time if I don’t take care of my mind and myself. I get stuck in my own mind with painful negative thoughts that doesn’t want to disappear. Or at least that’s what I think at the time. I know now that its just thoughts. They are not the reality. Anyone that ever have had a panic-attack know what I’m talking about. It feels like you are in a room where all the walls falls down on you and you can’t get out or like a wave is coming over you and bury you in negative thoughts and words and you can’t reach the surface (once again, this is what it feels like, not
the reality). After words I feel drained and it feels like there is nothing left.
The trick is tho not to listen to your mind. You are what you think and if you don’t like the thought that comes in to your mind you should not pay attention to it. I write this down so I can read it the next time any thought are trying to play with me.
We are all humans. No one is perfect (lucky me) and we all have our own issues. We are all freaks in a strange (but electrifying!) world. I could blame myself and tell myself off because I have “wasted” two days listening to my tricky mind. But that’s not going to do anything better. I will see it as a lesson and knowing that I have learnt something from it. To listen and to take control.
I can easily feel that I want to apologise to all the loving people that I have around me for my “stuck in thoughts behaviour” and I still do even if they say I should not. I’m grateful. (Thank you
This wasn’t meant to be a depressing blog post where
I tell you all how tuff my life is. Because it’s not! It’s absolutely magnificent. (I promise you all, I'm having a great time down under! Dont worry about that...) This is a help for me, something to go back to and read, a reminder and a lesson learned. A note to myself.
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