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Hollow and helplessness after yet another day of emotional violence. Simultaneous steel traps of stubbornness withhold love and acceptance from each other. When will enough be enough?? Lately I feel my best when I am alone. So why can I not acknowledge to myself that I need space and time to myself and that perhaps it is best for both us for me to take that time? I have neglected my SELF. This feels good, my creative, radiant essence. Why do I not seem able to maintain both blissful states of being? In love with my life, partner AND self?! Attachment to pleasing… And if I am purely focused on the pleasing of another, how can I be for myself also? So, why be purely focused on the pleasing of another then? Ah-haaa…..

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