Not long now. And it still seems so abstract. So distant. I booked my flight to India nearly six months ago. Extended my stay a month or so later. Decided to extend it indefinately about five weeks ago now. It has been difficult, and not less by the rather impulsive and irrational nature of the listed decisions. But it is the right thing to do. I think. I am oscillating somewhere between the years of 29 and 30 - This seems to be a lucrative age for philosophers and artists who attempt to say something about the human condition. As though several streams of existential anxiety and insight may intersect at this stage of embodied and psychic development, destabilising and disrupting the subject as it has existed until this point. Sartre's Nausea charts the impossible anxieties
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