TO BLOG OR NOT TO BLOG?

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TO BLOG OR NOT TO BLOG?
This is the question that has caused me quite a dilemma for the past month. While I enjoy reading blogs written by other people, I’ve somehow convinced myself that making my own would be self-righteous or presumptuous that other people actually give a shit about what I have to say. I now realize how backwards that thinking is; I’m the one presuming that what I have to say is unimportant or uninteresting. If I’m going to do this thing, I’m going to do it in my way, and that means brutal honesty and openness.

I figure, if nothing else, it will be a documentation of my trip and my journey to delve, reflect, learn, watch, nurture, respect, embrace, and love my inner self. If any of you choose to join me I welcome and appreciate you. Perhaps I could help or inspire someone through my journey and that would certainly make it all worthwhile.



MY TRIP SO FAR: (6 days in)

While I was on the plane, I was reciting to myself what my first blog entry would be. I would talk about how open I am to receive this experience, how I feel grateful, healthy, happy and ready to soak in all I can. I was (kind of) prepared for a battle, but I now know that one can’t really be prepared for this sort of thing. I think part of me was expecting to walk off the plane straight into contentedness. Needless to say, I’m having some issues. My physical hardships are affecting my mental state. This jet lag thing is pretty rough. Thailand is 12 hours ahead, exactly the flip-flop of American time. I thought I could beat it by not sleeping the night before I left… however, my body is persistently trying to keep me on the opposite schedule. I feel like my physical and mental beings are at war.

Secondly, the heat is causing me to retain water. My feet are swollen, I’m bloated and fatigued, my neck and shoulders are killing me. I’ve realized that this trip is harder at 34 than it would have been in my 20s. Through the physical annoyances I am trying to stay in good spirits, forcing myself to get up and out into the mayhem that is Bangkok. It is truly fascinating and I am grateful for this opportunity.

Okay, that’s enough complaining. My next post will be about my observations and the things I’m enjoying here.

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Photos

Sukhumvit
Traffic backed up on Sukhumvit.

All Smiles
A couple of amazing mannequins in Bangkok

Monk in Public
I love their vibrant robes, perfectly balanced with the bright colors of the city.

Shrine decorations
These vendors are selling handmade offerings for the shrine nearby.

Bangkok
Skyline from the bathroom at Terminal 21

Comments

[Jenna]

Go Sassypants
Hang in there! I can't wait to read more. Love from home:-)

[Jenn]

Wuv you!
I am anxiously awaiting your next post... Be safe! XO