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Published: August 3rd 2008
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dad
poor dad got sick the last day he was here. i never saw dad so sick.
and this is random but there is a one legged pigeon staring at me right now... Do you remember the movie Eternal Sunshine for a Spotless Mind? Where they have this surgery to remove the memory of someone? Do you ever wish you could do that? Not because it was a bad relationships, but because the relationship is over and the thought of it just hurts too much. But then I wonder which is worse. Not having the memories or have the memories and knowing that you’ll never be able to get it back.
Marinate on that.
Summer term is almost over. I can’t believe it. It’s gone by fast. My kids this term are great. I will miss them next the time around. June came and went by so fast. After my birthday I was on the edge about life. I was so homesick, all I could think about was what was there, who was there. I thought about my future, what I wanted to do with life and what I needed to do to get there. I decided to finally apply to grad school to get my Masters in Clinical Social Work. One day after spending the day with a friend, I decided that I just need to get on it. I couldn’t
mom
i miss them! stop putting if off just for the fact that I was afraid of rejection. Life is about taking chances. What would it be like if we all played it safe? So I went home and sat in front of the computer till about 2 in the morning writing about anything and everything that was related to what I wanted to do and why. I got so excited about life and the thought of what the future held. When I can get myself to focus on the positive and what lies ahead, life is good. But sometimes I fall and think too much about the past. About the disappointment and that’s when being here without anyone makes it hard.
Mom and Dad came to visit at the end of June and seeing them was just what I needed. They brought a sense of home and a reminder of who I was and where I came from. Some days I get so wrapped up in all this crap going on here. I forget things. Important things. It was nice to see family that I haven’t seen in years. And to just have that feeling of being surrounded by family was amazing.
namsan tower
we took the cable cars up to the top. We did some sightseeing and Dad took us to places where he used to play when he was young. It was so cool to hear the stories he had to tell and to hear about how much things have changed since he was young.
After they left, it became clear that living here in Korea for an extended amount of time is not the plan. That life is moving on with or without me. This is a great transition but is not where I’m supposed to be in the next two or three years. So I’ve been working on my purpose statement and trying to get the grad application out. (Thanks Amanda for your help!)
About a week later, summer intensives started at school and I took on the position as head instructor. It’s been some additional work but it’s been going well. When my boss asked me a few weeks before if I’d be interested in a promotion as Head Instructor for the next term, I was hesitant at first to take the position. I told her I’d try summer intensives and see how it went. Just this week I agreed to take the position. It
cheong gye cheon
dad said this used to be a big river and he used to play in it when he was young. then they covered it up and just a few years ago they reopened it. its so cute. means more work, but I’m thinking of my future and building my resume.
A few days ago I talked to Sindy. Oh my gosh I freakin miss you guys so much!!! And what the hell is going on?! Erica and Pabs, congrats on getting hitched. Mols, where the heck are you? How’s the full time job treatin you? Wen, you amaze me every day. I admire your passion. Chitra, we should chat. It’s been too long. Hope the dancing is going well. Amanda Z., thanks so much for all your help with the grad app. I’ll be in touch soon. Kalpesh, thanks for the encouraging emails and good luck with Cindy. Jessica, you’re getting married this month! I’m so sad that I can’t make it out there. I love you and pray that God blesses your wedding and more importantly your marriage. I owe you an email… Courtney and Erika, I know it’s been forever, but I often think of you guys! And Sister, I love you and am sad we don’t get to talk as much as we’d like.
Six more months then hopefully I’ll be back!
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Kalpesh
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excellent!
Hmm... I think it's better to keep the memories of those in your past that have helped shape who you are a person today. I think to do that, would do ourselves injustice. We all come from a beginning, and to know that, will help us create path to where we're going. Ok, enough philosophical rambling. I really liked this email, it's like I was reading a book and getting close to the happy ending. Sounds like you've found your place, people like you, you got a promotion, sweet!! soju rounds for everyone! mom/dad came to visit, you've decided it's time to move on and are putting the plans into place. That's great! Congrats on all the successes you've worked so hard to achieve! Keep me posted how your grad school plans go! I have another email I'll be writing you shortly, since I'm coming to Korea!!! :)