malay.last lap

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kl. took 2.60 rm kalang bus 2 sg begi toll.there
hitchhike 2 melaka.1,no,2 min b4 car stop.
melaka.camp ,free,in botanical gaedn.shower,many
mosquitos,many monkeys.night.tiny ants,all over, in
tent.moved 100 mtr.
melaka.eat tosai,sleep,10rm, eastern heritage.
hitchhike eastcoast.
am fake,am false. my philosophies unrealisd plays of
thought. lie with my autojustifications.
xample. dont like 2 accept invitations,presents. feel
shame when some1 pay my food.but its just fuckin
honor,shame. oftn mo asahmed 2 accept from rich than
from poor. ashamed cos i feel dirty, small.
all my philsophies dont bring me nearer 2 inna beauty,
as long as philosophie comes from mind reasonin. real
beauty is aprouched when good deeds r done
naturally,without thought. we shouldnt try 2 do good.we
should bcome good first.then, everythin we would do
would b goog, naturally.
hitchhikin.lanjut.hotelowner,lady,invitation 2 stay
some days.didnt accept. shit. should.
sittin oon big rock overlookin t chempadak beach.morni
sun,smoth,nicely formed rocks lyin handsomly in golden
sand. a green, by paths xplorable, jungle bhind beach.
my tent in grass. sometimes a huge group of mnkeys
pass. 2 girl, fully dressed, islam style, in water.
tourists r local students.over there mo tents.hiphop on
mp3. food xpenive, so: bread n tap water.
superfluos wealth can buy only superfluities. money is
not needed 2 buy ones necessary of d soul. (
thoreau/walden)
cherating.tent.beach,sunset. xperimentating bracelet.
eastcost is mo muslim,relax n mo careless trowin their
trash away. a long,wide, beach, but ,2 me, less
beautyfull than chempedak.
i spend less on hitchhikeday than in city,village,day.
am sunburned.
restaurant.1,50 rm nasi lemak. girl gave me orange
sayin: 4 u, chinese new year.hm, early, its still 7
days away.
saw 2day tucans n huge waran.kemasik. d warm light of a
settin sun.a fantastic viewpoint n nice place 4 tent.
sorry. rutger.
i wrote i would xplain concept about my unsatisfacion
bnetter.but am afraid i cant. look, latly i bcame
careless. in some ways i thing is good, in some its
not. c?, i cant ven deepen in thoughts, i cant
dedicaete 2 aqnythin n i couldnt care less. but let me
try anyway.
rutger, all fuck i wrote bout happyness is raini on my
waterproofed body is xagerated. yes, happyness
rains.but am not waterproofed. happyness touches me. i
lie my life. but also , am unsatisfied., cos...
bluish rice with stuff, rice is blue cos d herbs it was
cooked with. tent,candle , sound of sea.
am unsatiusfied cos... dificult, here could fall a)
in2 autojustifications, b) fakism(as i wanna sound
inteligent) c) teories. i wanna write"cos this
life bcomes habit, n when adventure bcomes habit it
cease 2 b adventure, &... what i most want,need, is
love.eyes that touch my inside. & am far away from
this. far.farfar.but ,again, i ike this life. really.
walked under rain, now roof,shelter,mp3.
now,wet,happyness.
i repeat. happyness is not givn by d outside,it seems,
i know, but it is not. happyness is not happy moments
given u by adventure, visual beauty, sucsess or, even,
love.its not d walkin along d road inna rain,even if u
fee happy.its not sunrise,300,not a gecko lyin eggs.
not stars,snorkelin, certainly its not sex, nor good
food, good conversation. its not even d eyes of d girl
u love. beauty lies in d eyes of d beholder. mayb
happyness is not things,moments, but d way 2 look at
em.mayb its total acceptance,2 love all.happyness is d
facility 2 grasp d wolrd. b touched easyly, by
everything.hm,rutger, sorry, 2 much stereotypes.i dont
know, u r mo clever, what do u think?
east coast hitchikin mo dificult.some1 came,gave me
fruit.
all my philosophie,cheap shit: i still need outhern
influencs 2 feel happy.watched d hangover. very nice.
kb.kota baru. free internet in tourist office.watched
avatar. i liked, was good.
sleep travellers lodge 1.
cloudy sky, bit decadent hot springs of jeli. 3
,different hot, pools. all time em say, dont sleep
here, danger, tiger, elephant.
tried ginger beer,root beer.
plant 2 return 2 europe, air asia, 1349, 4 summer.280.
euro. hm
enter water, leave, read ,s.bellow, enter water,leave,
read, enter water, laeve,read, enter....ect.

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