Of Pilgrims, Men, and Gods

Oh how I have missed reading your blog. happy to feel you again. You are wise chantel and I know the feeling of searching and searching inside the soul and ego. I like your metaphor of the ego being cut off from its source of food (adrenaline, movement, change, instigation, etc) and simply saying, ill try this even though all the signs say dont. from my understanding, enlightenment means utter positive joy and acceptance. Like if you are so eternally grateful you will never have to ask or pay for anything because it will be given to you. I believe one would be released from their body and mind if they became so full of joy. You sometimes need the nasty ppl (aka pervs grabbing your ass) to let your soul snap, lose its cool, and retaliate. enlighten thyself first. Then once stable, start enlightening as many around u as you can. Its tiring because theres a lot of animals out there that would love... Now im rambling. anyways i miss you girl and send you light and strength over there. Such fond memories of being in Big Sur with you and Clare and diving in carmel (that was wiiilddddd!!!!) hehe. im working at a dive shop.. considering getting my dm. But the puget sound is pretty nipply. Love, K