F-stop Blues

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okay, so i appoligize for being incredibly lazy lately. i just find it hard to sit down here and type away while the sun is shining outside and the beach is calling my name. but since it is slightly cloudy right now and i just had a chat with my family on the phone i got slightly motivated to get up and write again 😊
this morning i woke up at like 530am to a friend calling me asking if i wanted to hit the beach with him for a surf before he headed off to work, we had been out surfing the night before for like 2ish hours so i was pretty spent but i went anyways. it was SO beautifull this morning out on ansteys beach, the sun was just tipping over the ocean when we got there, the air was fresh clean and smelt like the sea (obviously) we took his dogs for a quick run on the beach then grabbed the boards. it was SO rough this morning, there was such a strong inwash so paddeling out was a million times harder than usuall, and there was a really strong north current so we were drifting all over the place, but i caught a few nices one but with a combination of being tired from the night before and then hard currents i was spent. so we pulled in and headed home. i had a shower then lay outside in the sun to dry off, i fell asleep and had a bit of a nap. me and another friend grabbed coffee and had a serious chat about life and all that it encures. i just got back about an hour ago, i watched MK live (basically like MTV TRL or Muchondemand) cause last weekend his band was in Joburg playing a show and givin a interview so i watched that then gave my fam back home a call. it was a good long chat about everything a nice quick catch up on life. lol
i think ive said this everysingle time and i will continue to say this in the coming times, being here is amazing. it makes me think and realize so many things that i never thought about. ive laid back and relax and just enjoyed life for all that it is, each day that is giving to me is a new blessing and each day is another opportunity to do something exciting funn new and an opportunity that i will not waste. leaving will be the hardest thing yet. and i dont think its the big things that i will miss most, but those little things, like over christmas break when all the family was down and me, my uncle and my cousins husband mark made our own little voors creattions, mine was pinapple and onion, and not to be too bias but mine was the best 😊 lol, mark made garlic ones and after chopping up "only one or two cloves" decided to add only half of what he had chopped incase it was too strong, well i'd hate to think how they would have tasted had we added all the garlic, cause my gosh, they were SO strong, lol. and like today grabbing coffee with chris, sure the reason why we went out in the first place wasnt exactly idea. and having a cup of coffee at an indian fast food joint wasnt exactly the greatest, it was fun, and moments like that i will really miss, cause its not all those big grand events that you have with people that you will never forget and allways remember, sometimes its the little things, because those are the ones that happen when no one is rushed or paying attention, its what happens when you settle down after all the caos, once all the dust has settled, and you can just do normall things on a normal day for no reason at all. just because.
the other night, friday i believe it was, i got a last minute invitation to go out to 'Some bar' that some friends were going too, so i quickly threw on some clothes and ran out the door, i then find out were going out for dinner first which was cool, but first we had to stop off at a friends house, once there i find out that it was someones birthday so were all having wine and toasting this person that i had never met before in my entire life, but i was privalleged enough to be one of the 11ppl invited to his birthday dinnner? lol, so we went out for thai food (mmmhh delish) then headed over to the bar, me and one of the guys craig started chatting and ended up spending the whole night in the lounge talking about tramatic moments in our lifes. lol. at about 1am we were so over the club we were at, so on our way to my place we made a pit stop at this small shit-whole in the wall pub called winstons, its basically in the middle of the durban getto (eeek) it looked like the place that i might die in, hahah. we walk in and there is this cracked disco balling wobbling more than spining on the ceiling. theres like 3 people in the bar, one of which has big black mohawkish spikes for hair and is currently keeled over on the bar. haha, we sit down and order a 40 of black label beer for like 10rand (black label is like 10thousand times crappier than lakeport, and 10 rand is like $1.20) after a few spits inbetween our convo, the passed out person shoots up, and looks around, craig ended up knowing who it was, she was this local drunk they all called Loopy, and she was a regular at the winstons and our favorite hangout burn. she was HILLARIOUS, not your tipically irratating babaling drunk, just a fun-liveloving local that enjoyed having one too many drinks at times. after the beer was gone and the bar was closed it was off to bed. the next day, we just sat around the house in the backyard talking about everythign and anything we could think about, we even spotted a pack or school of about 20ish dolphins swiming past. we had a quick lunch with my aunt and uncle then heading down to the beach for a surf. later than evening before heading out to burn to surprise an old friend from joburg the 4 of us went out for a delishous sushi dinner, it was so nice to sit and have a nice meal with my aunt and uncle (not that all of them arnt fabulous) and once it was over and me and craig had to go to burn to catch the show, when we were walking back to the car, he just said, today was the funnest day of doing nothing ive had in a long long time. and i couldnt have said it anybetter.
i must now go, the sun poked back out, and my hands are sore from typing, and shit i forgot i have to call my grandparents back.
well this was nice, and i will deffantly try and get back on here very soon,

i just wanted to give a quick few shout outs to ppl.

mom & dad: thank you so much for finally letting me go on this trip, the past 2years have been rough and confussing trying to find my placein the world and figure out wat i wanted to get out of life, and being on this trip so far, i have realized all that and more, this has been the best experience for me ever and im not even a quarter way through it . so thank you, miss you and love you

my brothers: you guys are awsome, being away from you has been so rough, and ive really taken you guys for granted. you guys are the coolest, i couldnt ask for a better bunch. rock on

my lady loves: i loveyou guys so much, there arent really better words to put them in, we've been through the ups and downs or high school, grad, boys and all the other escapades and dangerous adventures that we usually throw ourself into but its been amazing, you guys too i have taken for granted, its been hard being away from everyone and not being able to call up my ell-bell and go for a beer and nachos at nibbs, or a peach ring movie fest that usually only last about 15mins with laur, lunch dates at paldinos with gwen ash & stacy, sleeping of kells comfy green couch and having mariokart tournaments when predrinking or nursing the hangovers. sharon and kar, i wont be too speciffic, all ill say is mandarin binges 😊 carly & bri, Team Brunette! queen beerpong champians of the world! kristin, oh dear, where do i start with you, when ever i think of you i am always reminded of grade 8 gym class, we were all playing a serious game of baseball and you decided to have an impromp dance class in the outfield. we never liked each other much then, i thought you were weird and you thought i was a bitch, but i think we worked it out all right, soon to be neirbourgh 😊, tal, all i could do when i thought of you was smile 😊 and i still cant believe you cut all your lovely long hair off! Kyle, you strange girl, i dont think i will ever fully figure you out, and i think im okay with that, you are never a dull moment, all i can say when i think of you, is oh my word that smile, :D Kim Yams, my little asian activist, one day you will save the world my love, CAPTAIN PLANET AWAY! lol marissa, my make out partner lol, you are too much chick to beable to describe, hotty with that banging body and big blue eyes 😊 steph, our chitchat in guelph about leavin home for a while made me so relaxed about leaving, LJ the big sister i never had, your the wisest person i know, your advice has saved my ass more times than i could ever image, my owl 😊
i know ive forgotten probably alot of important ppl, and im sorry if i did, but the point is that i love you all and miss you all even more

my boys, well you all know who you are, and knowing you, you probably wont read this anyways, but i miss you guys too, i hope you guys arent having too much trouble "picking up some drunk bitches" without me 😊 lol such classy gents you guys are.

lastly, boy, i miss you, so much, it sucks, never ever have i ever missed some one soo much 😊. when i get back were gona spend 3 whole days just lying in bed watching movies and talking about how much your school schedule sucks. i miss hearing about you stupid lab partners and your insane million labs due a week 😊 hopefully all my postcars will have reached you by the time i get home.


peace out for now, im taking a nap, havin a shower, grabbing dinner then its off to the bar for some Black label and Sprinboks!

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