interesting. I think I missed this post. But I know what you mean, it's hard reflecting inwards and seeing our flaws, but it's important because it's how others see us. Scary huh. I've got issues too, even though I try to pretend like I don't. I like living with people though, they make the day more fun and help pass the time and sometimes you just need someone to listen and bounce life off of.
-kj
fear by jazmine sullivan I'm scared to try cuz I'm scared to fail
I'm scared to die cuz I'm scared of hell
I'm scared to kiss scared to hug
I'm scared of sex cuz I'm scared to touch
I'm scared to look cuz I'm scared to see
I'm scared of you cuz I'm scared of me
I'm scared to fly cuz I'm scared to crash
I'm scared to move on so I live in the past
I'm scared to fight cuz I'm scared to bleed
I'm scared of love cuz I'm scared he'll live
I'm scared of drugs I'm scared to drink
I'm scared to swim cuz I'm scared to sink
I'm scared to learn cuz I'm scared of truth
Don't wanna gain weight cuz I'm scared of food
I'm scared to think that the label dropped me
I'm scared to think of my album floppin
This may sound silly but it's true
So don't pretend it aint you too
We all afraid of something here
Cuz yu aint human with out fear
I'm scared to start cuz I'm scared I'll quit
I'm scared that people wont like my shit
I'm scared of fame and paparatzi
Rumors startin and people watching
Scared to grow up cuz I'm scared to grow old
Scared of the dark and beign alone
I'm scared of war I'm scared of jail
Scared to share a secret cuz I'm scared you'll tell
This may sound silly but it's true
So don't pretend it aint you too
We all afraid of something here
Cuz yu aint human with out fear
experience it all, regret nothing. Hey susan, you said it in your quote, happiness is a journey, not a destination. And your journey has already begun. don't downplay the role or effect Korea has had on your life, I'm sure it has taught you a great deal of lessons. We all move at different paces, so I don't think you were hiding out, you've been experiencing another world, a new side to life, and for that I applaud you. We'll see you back here in the fall, when you're ready to come back.
It's better to have loved and lost.
-kj
hi i've been following your blog for a while now... very interesting... this post reminds me of a summer camp i taught at in Pyeongtaek a couple of years ago...
keep up the good work!
:-)
(rick in chicago, but wishing it was korea)
excellent! I always say "excellent" in my comments to your postings, but it's really true! I liked the section about things you've learned, and I couldn't agree with you more, I hope I can incorporate some of those truisms into my life as well! I'll try to make it out again! :)
keep learning and growing!
-kj
wow! wow, shark time! noraebong on train time! chocopie time! That sounds so cool, you're definitely enjoying yourself during your down time, excellent!! Keep up the good commentary! I met these norwegians on the N. Korea tour, they said they "always" stay at the love motels, cause "the beds are softer" well duh, cause people are f-ing on them all the time!! :)
Excellent Another excellent posting. Since I never made it to the DMZ trip, I'm glad I got to experience it through you! Looks amazing! I read about the 3rd tunnel, I can't believe you went in it! That's amazing. N. Korea did infiltrate the South, until they were pushed back. But yea, very interesting. It's a good compliment to the Kaesong tour. I hope they open the tour back up and that you're able to see it. N. Korea is amazingly strange, and stark reminder of a world with forgotten people. Interestingly, the South doesn't want to unify with the North anytime soon, need to increase their annual per capita otherwise they will drag down teh south in an economic collapse of the country! Great posting! :) new challenges lie ahead for you...
Love it! Hey Susan,
Thanks for the history lesson. I absolutely loved it and would like to learn more about North and South Korea. You look so amazing in all of our pictures, and I hope that you're doing just as well. Also, remember, that whenever you do decide to come back, we'll be happily waiting for you. Much love! MWAH, MWAH, MWAH...
hello! Susan! you have no idea how great you were to us in Korea!! I think it's one thing to hang out with people a bit here in MN, but to spend time with them in a foreign country, you definitely get to know them better! Thank you so much. I feel like I've gotten to know you while you've been in Korea through thoughts and emails, if that sounds strange - I don't know how to explain it, but I think you know what I mean. Korea was amazing and I would love to come back! We'll definitely hang out when you're in MN, that's for sure. I might be moving as well, but I'll fill you in on the details when I write. I feel like it's been so long, but it's only been 1 week since I was in Korea. 7 days ago, I was still there. crazy. So much has changed, I feel like I've been in MN for eons. Lots of thoughts! Will fill you in, hope you're having a great weekend!
hello! Susan! you have no idea how great you were to us in Korea!! I think it's one thing to hang out with people a bit here in MN, but to spend time with them in a foreign country, you definitely get to know them better! Thank you so much. I feel like I've gotten to know you while you've been in Korea through thoughts and emails, if that sounds strange - I don't know how to explain it, but I think you know what I mean. Korea was amazing and I would love to come back! We'll definitely hang out when you're in MN, that's for sure. I might be moving as well, but I'll fill you in on the details when I write. I feel like it's been so long, but it's only been 1 week since I was in Korea. 7 days ago, I was still there. crazy. So much has changed, I feel like I've been in MN for eons. Lots of thoughts! Will fill you in, hope you're having a great weekend!
wow!! that's so awesome!!! wish i could see you again before you go home..but i don't think i can make it.. :(
oh and i posted that blog late, my parents only came once...hehee
woah woah! I wanna do skyjump!!! you'll have to tell us more so maybe we can check it out while we're there! Way to put yourself out there!! i'm sure you'll continue to reminisce on the korea memories for the remainder of your time, a year is quite an experience!
-kj
Hmm! Ugh! political bs in the workplace sucks, but it sounds like you're making good progress internally. You know what you're in Korea to do, and you're going to make the most of your time - that's awesome. Have some fun adventures along the way and remember to stop and smell the kimchi every once in a while! I am so ready for the korea vacation! I'm excited! adventure time! Anyways get moving cause time is precious and you don't want to look back on your time in Korea and say, "I wish I had done this..."
cheers!
-kj
excellent! Hmm... I think it's better to keep the memories of those in your past that have helped shape who you are a person today. I think to do that, would do ourselves injustice. We all come from a beginning, and to know that, will help us create path to where we're going. Ok, enough philosophical rambling. I really liked this email, it's like I was reading a book and getting close to the happy ending. Sounds like you've found your place, people like you, you got a promotion, sweet!! soju rounds for everyone! mom/dad came to visit, you've decided it's time to move on and are putting the plans into place. That's great! Congrats on all the successes you've worked so hard to achieve! Keep me posted how your grad school plans go! I have another email I'll be writing you shortly, since I'm coming to Korea!!! :)
and so it is. nd so it is, just like you said it would be... life goes easy on me... Most of the time. And so it is, the shorter story, no love, no glory... no hero in her skies............. I can't take my eyes off you.
you know susan. this world isn't easy. but nobody said this world or life would be. sometimes it's hard to take a step back and see how the world has evolved around us, and maybe on a microscale: how we've become biased and evolved with a culture that we didn't even realize was revolving. we all change, we all learn, adapt, and eventually grow from our experiences. But sometimes we focus too much on the micro picture, and it's all we can focus on, the negative thoughts, the hurt, the relationships and the moments that bring us on the verge of both tears... and joy. But. Wait. Stop. Slow. Down. Take a step back... look at the macro picture. You're learning more about yourself now and your own ability than you might have thought. You're learning how you deal with being alone, with other people, with cultural changes, and with an amazing experience that may shape the very core of your being. For better or worse, these are the times. I saw Obama speak last night, and all I can think is, "this. is. the. time." period. This is it Susan. you're living your life. you've started your real life. you're living. You're enduring. You're learning. And you're doing it better than 98% of the world's population. There are millions and 10's of millions of people who will never embark on the same journey you have with the same experiences. That makes you, and your growth... well, unique.
don't stop.
-kj
i get this! suz.
i just want you to know how creepy it is that i have been pondering the same things today. wondering if i can ever let go of past hurt. wondering if i am living out of fear instead of just enjoying life and living. wondering if i'm just depressed because i dont feel like i used to feel anymore. i feel like nothing is good enough. wondering why i keep moving..
maybe this is what being in the 20's is all about or maybe we both are crazy together! but either way, i just wanted you to know i get this. i really get this. and something about being abroad makes us feel even crazier. but dont worry your not. and i love you. i'd love to chat with you more! its been far too long. my email should be listed, or there is always myspace:)
sometimes you're right hey susan, you're right, sometimes you need to just take a minute to take it all in... sometimes the people we meet affect us in ways we didn't think possible. They help shape who we become as a person or how we think as individuals of a global society. Sounds like you met someone who changed you a bit, that's excellent. Even if you never speak again, it's still the learning experience, and they take a part of you with them when they leave... sometimes we don't have that minute to take it all in. Sometimes we need to make that minute for ourselves. Sometimes when we take ourselves out of the small details of the problem at the time and look at the bigger picture, we realize what a relatively small issue it is... life is short. "problems" are vast. this is a trying time for all of us. life will never be the same. never.
excellent glad to hear things are getting better! Korea sounds like such a trip! I can't imagine worrying about getting hit on the sidewalk. Oh, and I like the soju titanic picture! lol, keep up the good work and experience as much as you can, you might not get this time back.
Yeay! Love the couch. Glad things are pickin up lady. I'm doing well also. You should join the moped trend...how much fun would that be. DO IT! K, miss you.
p.s.- don't get run over.
wow wow, the drama definitely continues!! Hang in there, these experiences, no matter how troubling or rough will only make you a stronger person in the long run! keep your head up!
-kalpesh
your uncle's store just happened across this blog, I am going to Seoul april 1-18th. to see my Navy son. would love to shop at your uncles store is it opened to the public? enjoy your trip, I havent seen my son and his family for over a year booo hooo
thank you
Pam
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interesting.
I think I missed this post. But I know what you mean, it's hard reflecting inwards and seeing our flaws, but it's important because it's how others see us. Scary huh. I've got issues too, even though I try to pretend like I don't. I like living with people though, they make the day more fun and help pass the time and sometimes you just need someone to listen and bounce life off of. -kj