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Art to Wear
One of the outfits Iris made for NC State's "Art to Wear" show. Her boyfriend wore it initially, and I think I might be modeling it at Otakon this year for her. "Do what is going to make you happy for the next six months" were the wise words of my senior number one husband. It's nothing long, beautiful and poetic but I never really expect that from Jenny. She's always blunt with me, and tells me straight up what she thinks and how she feels. It's been a long time since the two of us have been able to talk. I remember a lot of days at Gaidai where I'd fall asleep on the tatami mat beside her futon, laying upside down on the couch while she ranted about something ignorant that had been on CNN, many rides to Top World on the back of her bicycle when my ankle was too fucked up for me to run.. We could always talk to each other about anything. There were several times when she'd come to my room in tears or I to hers; I can honestly say it was Jenny that helped me to come out of my shell and be able to express myself. Today was a day I definitely needed to talk to her and I'm so grateful that I had the opportunity.
I had the most random dream
The usual suspects
Iris and April, waiting outside in the rain for the firework show to start the other night and I know it has to deal entirely with the amount of time I spent in the company of friends this weekend. Iris and April came over to celebrate Independence Day with me and we spent the majority of the evening talking over drinks, being entirely too amused by the stupid things my dog does, and watching Anthony Bourdain's No Reservations. The dream was actually fairly similar to an episode of No Reservations, minus the sarcastic background commentary and instead replaced with the sound of us all laughing and joking. I was apparently intending to take the train down to Jönköping to visit Fred but ended up getting sidetracked in Stockholm with David and Vincent for the day, and called to get him to come meet us there. We went clubbing and to the cinema, then had these hot dogs that I had seen on No Reservations for a snack after some drinks. The striking thing is that I didn't wake up expecting to see myself in the Seminar House, nor was I yearning for something that was in the past; instead, I was really very happy actually, and extremely hopeful for what is coming up. Maybe
Indoor Picnic
I really miss these.. There's nothing quite as awesome as Beer Park I've finally come to terms with things? If that's the case then I'm going to be overbearingly ecstatic when things finally do happen. And I need to talk to you about when would be a good time to visit, Aniki!
I spent a fair amount of my time this Independence Day with my friends April and Iris, and I really couldn't have asked for a better time. We did so much! We had planned on going to see the fireworks for the celebration.. and when we got there it rained so hard, haha. The three of us were standing on the street corner huddled under Iris's umbrella, with me being bombarded by rain and wind (mind you that I was wearing a dress for the first time in.. well, ever) and squeaking every five seconds. They were cancelled inevitably, but we still managed to have one of the greatest Independence Day's of my life so far. We talked about a wide variety of things: graduation, upcoming conventions that Iris would be at, J-rock bands and the crazy things they do here in America (especially 12012, haha), Iris's clothing line, Sora and Ben's wedding, my going away party in December..
What's it taste like?
I played bartender, even though I really had no clue what I was doing. If the Dr. Pepper/Coke tastes primarily like rum.. then it works for me All in all this year is going to be amazing. I have at least one weekend to look forward to every month, as well as looking forward to planning my dreams. I also dyed my hair black.. It looks okay, I suppose. Never really happy with it.
We talked yesterday about ideas I had in the making for a bakery one day. I would really love to do an Alice in Wonderland theme for it; I've always loved that story, no matter the variation. I'd like to include things that are simple and exotic of taste, mostly favorites of friends.. I've spent a fair amount of time this past month planning what things I could sell that would set me apart. I've got a name decided on as well as a logo, and know that Iris and Kerri will help me with interior design of the place when I can finally set up a location. Which.. requires living in Sweden for a while, but. I've also been going around to bakeries and trying different things to see what tastes are in style, but a lot of what I've seen upon coming back to America looks so.. mediocre? I guess
Makenai yo!
Read the sign, haha that is what you could call it. The bakers really just don't seem to care about their final product, nor do they mind that their customers are eating something that love and talent weren't put into. What's even more surprising is that customers care even less; they don't even appreciate what has been made at all. And.. that's sad for someone like me who does put a lot of attention and care into what I bake. I never want to give someone something that I halfway tried to make, or was disinterested in from the beginning. Which is what leaves me with mixed emotions in regards to Sora and Ben's wedding cupcakes. They're satisfied with "whatever works" and are okay with "whatever is easiest". The design is essentially a blank canvas other than that it needs to follow a cherry blossom/Asian theme setting, but.. I don't know. I want to make them something awesome, something extravagent! Sora is one of my best friends, she deserves something more than just mediocre!
But what all of this rambling leads up to is that I'm considering moving back to North Carolina. It's a step in the wrong direction from where I would
Doc Holiday
This.. is how he sleeps. Halfway on the bed. I really wonder how he accomplishes it sometimes like to be heading, since I do want to develop a relationship with my mother before I leave. But.. I honestly don't think she wants to have one with me. I think that no matter what I do there is going to be a wall between us. I've been trying this past week to open up to her, and every time I say something it leads to an assumption, an assumption leads to an accusation, and by the end of it all I'm on my guard and we're fighting. I suppose it's mostly my fault for even bringing up the whole "kokuhaku" situation (which damn, that's driving me absolutely crazy). I do think that Jenny is right, though. These next six months I should be working a job that I'll enjoy and living life with the people here that are special to me. I should try to train my dog to walk on a leash and not drag me down the sidewalk with him, see the friends that inspire me and give my dreams their strength, and make amends with my step-mother so I can see my dad on a more routine basis. Tomorrow I am going to try and
call a bakery that was hiring in North Carolina before I moved up here. My luck is slim that they will still be hiring, but.. Isn't everything worth a shot? That's where I want to be right now. Learning how to decorate cakes with fondant and make pretty gum paste flowers so I can expand my portfolio and perhaps open a bakery of my own one day. The downside of North Carolina is no Swedish classes and no selling my car until December.. But those are really the only two things. Nothing else is keeping me here; but I can buy the Rosetta Stone software for learning Swedish, and keeping my car until December will give me time to do work on it so I can sell it for higher market value. Nothing is really holding me back other than finding a job in North Carolina and leaving the temporary hiring agency.
I don't know. Doushiyou?
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Vincent
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Ey, what did 12012 do? I think black hair suits you? Oh, when you come here, and if you got the length on your hair by then, we gotta go to my hairdresser, she absolutely rocks! and loves japan and japan-ish things and hairstyles!