*today’s thoughts* If I think of any misfortunate event I have found myself in, and there have been many, I can link in Alcohol. Not just a glass, but a bottle of whatever was on offer. Waking to find that I have shared my bed with someone I don’t recognise, unprotected sex, covered in bruises, the taste of filth in my mouth, red eyes, mental blanks of the night before. Drinking stops being fun when I am putting myself in danger. I have passed out in dark alleys, woke to find a hand up my skirt, locked myself out of the house at 3am, slept on the front lawn, drove to work when I can barely tie my shoe laces, divulged private matters. I have made a mockery of myself. Time and time again. I like
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