Thanks to all for your comments and for reading. Enjoying mental health issues at the moment, so staying in my head more, and not putting it out there. Probably not the best thing for me, I realize. Have fun at xmas if that means something to you. I'll be back in Benares so that may help. Might write then.
I saw an official road sign saying" Don't gossip, let him drive"
What a strange place.