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“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about, be kind, always.” As I exhaled into my first downward dog for 8 months I felt a rush of shame roll over me. How had I let it get this bad? My knees were bent, my stomach rolling over... my right heel screaming out in pain. That’s how I reminded myself, be kind Saskia. That was my mantra that class as I struggled for the first time since I can remember to touch my toes and scolded my stomach and weight, be kind Saskia, your here. You made it to the mat. How did I get here though? After starting to run in 2018 I was healthy and happy practicing yoga at least twice a week and running three times. I injured my foot that ... read more

I feel like for the last two months I have been holding my breath, at times I even felt like I was deep diving and holding my breath, all the fish nibbling at every part of my body- trying to promote a reaction. After a few months of feeling emotionally and physically drained, I took a Valium got on a plane and 17 disoriented hours later I arrived in Mumbai the hour qu at immigration and the confusion of an uber were the last moments before I sank into a king sized bed and fell directly to sleep. It wasn’t until about 8 hours later as I lay by the rooftop pool that I consciously felt myself exhale. I suddenly felt every fibre of my being begin to untense and slowly but surely it felt as ... read more

I took spring cleaning to another level this year when I decided to pull myself out of my rut by starting to training for a 10K, this was to be the first time in 6 years that I tried to run anywhere. (And even then I ran four times and gave up) I coupled this training with quite an extreme no dairy, sugar, wheat diet and as you can imagine I started to see physical results quite quickly. The mental side was a whole other ball game. I started as many people do with the couch to 5K plan it’s a type of podcast that’s starts you slow 3 minutes walking 60 seconds of running and builds up over 9 weeks. Those first few weeks were some of the hardest of my life. I was battling ... read more

Hello Saturn, I have been expecting you. Jesus Christ what a few months I have had I cannot pinpoint the moment it began, but I do remember the point it got worse, the point it was at its worst and the point it finally started to get better. I have a very unrealistic view on some things, I create moments in my mind that life never lives up to. Then I come crashing down, it’s only in the dark of night you see the stars, well I was blacked out, no stars. Well maybe the North Star, but in the south, it was all very confusing as I am sure you can understand. I think I just get disheartened easily, I think I just don’t know how to achieve things I want. I know work was ... read more

Shag, marry, kill Wouldn't it be fabulous if there was an extra button on tinder, the honesty button, swipe right then add intention. It would save everyone a lot of hassle. It seems in this world of instant availability, all experiences are available at the click of a button, and one of those is, temporary girlfriend. Since when did it become ok to spend weeks talking about every detail of your life, to share personal stories and feelings then decide on meeting your just not that into people. We are all guilty of it, but honestly I am worried that there is something funimentally wrong with society. Have we lost sight of courage? Feelings? Real emotion? Two weeks, then one night and something not even a message afterwards, we are built up and then let down. ... read more