Published: March 8th 2012March 8th 2012
So much has happened in the last few days. It seems like it has been months since my last blog entry!
There has been a lot of processing on my part. Some very deep and ancient feelings have been coming up. Things from my past and things from the past of this land. That is what happens here! :)
The short version is that a male in my life fabricated a story that prevented me from receiving an expected flow of funds. This was very surprising and completely unexpected from my point of view, as I could not see how any of it affected him one way or the other. Regardless, this was something that became somewhat of a tool that I could use.
It also shifted my flow and instead of heading off to Glastonbury tomorrow, which was my plan, I remain in Egypt, at least until after I lead my tour of sacred places here in April of 2012. (See Egyptian Galactivation Tour at www.GalacticWhisperer.com)
The day I found out, I was on my 4-day Nile Cruise, which was a wonderful trip, by the way. And FULL of activities, both physical and spiritual.
I was scheduled to visit both the Valley of the Kings and the Valley of the Queens on that day. My friends had coordinated a ride to these places with the taxi driver we had used the day before at Dendara and Luxor. (More on those under trips under separate blog/s).
So here I am, incredibly unhappy with what I would consider to be dominant and controlling male energies and I am journeying to the Valley of the Kings! Hmmmm..... :)
At the reception desk on the ship, I had asked about the Valleys and misunderstood what I was told. The gentleman advised me that they let very few people into the tomb of Queen Nefertari, which is considered a most beautiful and colorful tomb. I took that to mean that I needed to get there early to get in, when in actuality, the tomb has been closed by the Ministry of Tourism here in Egypt and special permission (and lots of money) is needed to get inside.
While still under my misperception, I asked my taxi driver - who spoke very little English - to take me there first. He kept disagreeing with me because Valley
Valley of the Kings
No cameras are allowed inside Valley of the Kings or Valley of the Queens, so here is a pic from outside.
of the Kings was further from the boat than Valley of the Queens. I insisted and he finally agreed with me... and then proceeded to take me to Valley of the Kings! So frustrating on the one hand, but a part of me knew all of this was happening in Divine order and for a reason.
Anyway, suffice it to say that the majority of my time with him followed that same pattern and definitely triggered me in relation to not being listened to and being controlled by someone who has their best interest in mind and not mine. (Even if they THINK they have my best interest in mind, if they don't know my heart, it is not possible).
Additionally, the guides inside the individual tombs would not let me out of their sight. A single, female tourist, American ... she must have money. And so they would try to be 'helpful', showing me things on the tomb walls that I could have seen for myself, all the while expecting "Baksheesh" (tips) for their efforts. Now understand that they are just trying to make money in the way they know how. These are beautiful people who have
My friend 'Salada' and another taxi driver.
had a rough time making money, especially since the revolution. Many tourists were afraid to come, lest they be caught up in the things that were happening here. So if you are someone who lives off of tourist dollars and there have been very little tourists for the last year or more, you are going to do whatever you can to earn baksheesh from those who do arrive.
This can make for some very pushy sales people! But they are just trying to survive, so there are no hard feelings on my part for sure.
Anyway, I happened to be in a state where I very much wanted to be alone to allow myself to sort through my feelings and all these 'pushy' males were getting in my space and not 'allowing' that to happen. Had I been in a more centered state, this would not have happened, but then, I was meant to be off-center so that this COULD happen the way it did! It's always perfect.
My taxi driver ended up going on more of my tour than I had expected. We had hired him as a driver, not a guide, so this was unexpected
meant that his dominating energy was very present for the trip (which I ended early). Remember I said he didn't speak much English? Well he happened to know enough to repeatedly relay to me over the entire trip that since neither of us were married, I could marry him and bring him to America with me. lol Not.
Also on this particular journey, I met some very friendly males who took my 'No' to purchase their goods at face value and then proceeded to just chat with me, perhaps practising their English or just enjoying a talk. One of those was 'Salada' so nicknamed because he eats a lot of Salad!
We ended the trip at Valley of the Queens, which was amazing! I sat across from Nefertari's tomb and just communed with her for a very long time. At one point, I asked for a break in the male energies that seemed to surround me in that moment. Within 30 seconds, down the mountain to my left (feminine, receiving side), a group of about 10 ladies paraded down, red rose in hand and singing something that could only have been in honor of the Divine Feminine. It was beautiful! And as always, perfectly and divinely timed. :)
The title of this entry is "The Divine Masculine." The reason I titled it so is because I spent several days pushing against what I was calling the Non-Divine Masculine - the tendency to control, to build heirarchy, to dominate. I told myself I was bothered by this in others and realized that what I was doing was also releasing whatever matching tendencies I held in my own personal space and vibration. And I would also like to re-word something ... There really is no "Non-Divine Masculine" in my new Truth. Why? Because all energy is Divine. And we use that energy in whatever way we need to in order to accomplish what we need to on our path.
So I am sending my gratitude out to all the males AND females in my life who support and nurture my growth and also to those who provide mirrors of the opposite whenever and wherever it is needed. I love you all!
Blessings, Aloha and Namaste
Sue Divine xx