i hope it is said in sweet sorrow lamentations desprair and all that is oppostie of that and love which is none of that

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hello friends,

i have missed you . here i am on Hilton Head. the island is named after a Captain, William Hilton, and in 1663 when he saw the headland he named it after his head! what a big head😊



libraries are a place of refuge.

and they are free except when they are not which is the case today when you want to use the internet.

i sacrificed two dollars to talk to you today!

what a big head😊



driving is tiring and sleeping in your car and being woken up in the middle of the night at the rest stop by a couple wanting more of my money (i guess it is theirs too😊) is even more tiring.



but, butt

both kinds of but(t)s you will find at the beach

i will walk the beach but i will not run

i will walk the beach and look at the butts😊



i will not stare however especially if they are with their mother or boyfriend.



because they just stare back at you, protecting



i realize now that when you marry you marry into a family, a clan

it seems wierd but it is true

it is a bonding

bound by love

hopefully

is love binding?

is it free?

is it the wind blowing

out to sea

is it the bird

flyin low

in the low country

stealing fish

flying away

love is

you cannot catch it

one minute it is there

the next gone

until the childs eye

beautiful

brings you back

and penetrates your heart

with a smile or a longing

and maybe that is where people get confused with love

and they want to take it for themselves

in greed

because love must be shared

indeed

when you hold on to it

it slips away

like the wind with no resting place

neither here

neither there

but everywhere

sometime it is stronger than strong

sometimes it is gentle breeze

sometimes it dies away

and you cannot touch it

can love be touched

or only felt?

when it swirls in your ear do you hear infinity

when you turn your head your out at sea

in the ocean

glowing

floating

speckled water and indentation of birth

waves

and gulls

and indentation of water and light



i walk and stop and watch the birds dive

one time two time six times it comes out with a catch

and flies up high

fish is struggling

then the bird drops down and catches it mid air

then it does it again, drops in mid air and catches before it reaches the waves

finally the fish is dead and the birds downs it



belly full

struggle over

the ocean has sacrificed its baby



paulo coelho (tough to spell)



he insprires me now

as he has in the "past"



as do you



the family awaits

at the hotel

a clan

a bonding

however loose

family is like what?



what is family like?

blood family

it is like a central location you go back to to visit because it is familar

family is familiar

the location is there for you

at any time

so it could be blood or not

but if blood

it is a raising

a raising and a dying

and a continuing or not

a continuing of the blood line or not



family is conversation

and sharing

love

remembering

times past

and moment of joy and grief

and what is so and so doing

and it is waiting too

waiting for uncle Karl to arrive



and so the bro calls

the bro who helps me move

the bro

who is brother

two chicks from a bird

let loose to the world

with 18 years each of love



and they return

to the mother

and father

and enjoy each moment

in marriage or not

in life true

whichever we create

and the creation continues

until we arrive at our destination

which is not far

which is



as we leave

we return

and in the returning





as we hope we cry

and sing sweet lullabies



the family calls



thank you

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