in hawaii, on the weekends, mostly, i used to play this game, i used to pretend that i wasn't such a little girl- that i didn't weight 115 lbs, and that i could play with the big kids. usually we'd go out drinking and i'd be okay for the first half, even 3 quarters of the night, (depending on what, or if, i had eaten for dinner), but at some point little dana would show back up, let herself in the game and find herself completely overwhelmed. normally something like a scarf or jacket would get lost in the process, along with a bunch of dignity and some self respect. i had been playing this game for some while, thinking that, believing that, or at least telling myself that, i was getting better at it. i
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