yangshuo

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wanna c chocolate fighter.
have nu idea 4 haircut,very biasha style. mayb after
makinn visa,cos may seem very punky. em do animals of
macrame here.
i feel theres a deep punkism in me.released by
alk,drugs. marta, remember ?, 1 day i lay drunk onna
floor, unable 2 move, hair aal cut away. u afraid: a
freak. u discovered a part of me.
xie, u mean mo nothin 2 me., like 1 of these chilean
girls i had, 4gotn after 1 day, or less. strange, why
did d brasilians stay longer? even remember em 2day.
yanshuo is a little city aurrounded by limestoned
almost verticaly upclimbin hills.a river inna center
where u can swim,20 y dormitory, d busy west str full
of selleres n huslers.d citty is full comercialised,
10000000 hotels, many people tryin 2 sell at a mo than
normal price. its a nice place 4 day tyrips, n 4 xie 2
find foreigners.
am allways like this:4 a certain time 1 xagerate 1
thin.selfdestrucion,writer,punkism,anti-ism,movie,lessn
essess,mental research. i find a philosophie ,then i
milk d cow.
now its truth.trueism
understand that there r 2 lies. d 1 2 others, d 1 2
yrself.1 oftn consequence of d other. we lie 2 our self
2 protect our self.4 respect,comfort n, mostly,2 keep
pain at distance. autojustifications. how can we speak
truth 2 others when we cant even cant speak it 2 our
self?
re read xies newest mails, also em full of lies.but, i
feel,lies she blieve herself is truth. these lies might
b 4giveable.
but not by me.
my "4givin people" time haver not come yet.
xiping issa place on d 20 y bill. d place is nicer than
nyangshuo. nice houses, impressive landscape. d 30y
hostel have free movies n billiard. but also here
tourism evolved 2 fast, tourists spend 2 carelessly, n
in consequence many locals try 2 overcharge us.,
thinkin: what does that 1,2,3 y mean 2 him? d marketday
was bit dissapointin.left. yangshuo.
consider goin 2 hospital 2morrow.2,3,days ear blocked.
night had 2 walk long time 2 find sign that wrote real
price : 3y. everybody wanted 2 overcharge me.
daytimefood found good rice n 3 sidedishes 4 5y.
its not only my phase of truth but also of
phicology,philosohy, of thinkin.
2 much thinkin, 2 few brain.
no idiot says hes idiot,as no inteligent says hes
inteligent. same same as only stupid says hes
inteligent n only inteligent calls himself stupid.
meanin: i call myself clever when i call myself
stupid.
hm

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