being

---

indeed.

a word i say

when there is nothing to say

when i agree

or



you have said something of value

and it is valued if it is true

true

truth

worry

what is worry?

fear

just do your best

that is all you can do, right?

kids

tomorrow i will be

withthem!

and the math...

i am studying😊

calculator and graphing

this is what worries me

the kids can show me

they are good

teachers

and when i am not distracted she comes in my mind

this Hayley

can i calculate what to do with her

if anything?

she no call😞

what to do

without distraction she comes into my mind

enters like a lost child

interesting

lost child i would say

and shamatha is a technique used

called calm abiding

"the dude abides"

in breath

and dance

and salsa

music

breath of dance and music

shaking dancing ladies

and beautiful girls

on late night strolls

going to bars

dancing

and hooking up

?

and i go on

playing chess

and reading

and preparing

learning the math

in basically

math for dummies!

and so i should get to it right?

i was once good at math

i think

i even like it

i must

rules

just rules

then applying it to real world situations

that is the challenge

and so ...

i am sure there will be more challenges

challenges i cannot conceive of

and the breathing through those

and calmly abiding

or not

persevere

connection of current landlord to working with troubled teens

i shall have to talk to him

connections

coonnections

patterns within patterns

and the cooing of a baby

next to me

what does that say?

it says mommy feed me!!!



and the samatha is like this

it is the coming back

to the breath

once your thoughts have passed

why do i tell you this?



because i deem it healthy

to see the thought

and back away from it

then the emotion that couples it

a strong emotion

and harder to back away

but you can still observe it

pass through you

you as body

you as emotion

you as whatever you is

you holding the "hand" that you created

and are creating

as an instrument

of learning

and being

unto yourself

and others

the interaction with others draws the you out

the desires out

the you-ness

the reflection



and three minutes to go

and counting

going going gone'what more to say dear friends

thank yu

and good luck with all your endeavors

😊

endeavor to what?

help

be in the right place at the right time?

for everyone

because we are all becoming

because because

there is no cause

just you

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