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Published: June 27th 2017
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It looks like the back of a fairly big fish
It is becoming even easier for me to connect with stranger, but it is on myself that I have no trust left. Stoney Squaw is only a montain's name now. Trick of the light - Matt Corby
It will happen. It happens to the best of us.
Side-stepping. Doubting. Looking back.
Did I head the wrong way? Why is my mind filled with regrets? Because I remember and my hurts come from the comparison. But there are many sides to a memory; in a weird way I am better than ever.
At least three times in a sedentary year will I retrospect and try to recenter. Because I loose my grip too easily, I’m emotionally clustered, I go blurry. Good thing I write, better thing I have fully lived.
I have seen the maritimes and the North-West of the states. Bike through two countries and camped in all kinds of weather. Crossed the Continental Divide five times and witnessed the midnight sun. I have connected, loved and learned. What else? What’s next?
If in one book pride and envy are evil deeds, then it’s not mine and will never be. Taking a step back at the moment I can see that my next dive is going to lose me and all of my landmarks in a blissful world of uncertainty and fear. It is the known but misunderstood that
Here's to that rainy day
I appreciate the sky for all it has to offer and what it refuses to limit. I dread. Seeing all that I cannot change and not possessing the acceptance necessary to feel comfort in normality.
I have let my anguish for living take the best of me through the quiet times. I should now appreciate the moments I can still have with my loves until I jump the ocean.
The plan is still pretty much the same : get ready for the next adventure. I have Europe in mind, especially that I now have ressources to get me on a boat to get there. I crave the North but also the other side. France, Scotland, Ireland, Germany, Norway, Swede, Austria, Russia, Mongolia, Tibet, Philippines, India, Australia and Kiwi-Land. And all that’s in between. I don’t know, I should look at a map.
For now my legs are finding their strenght back, slowly. My skin is burnt and my body tired. I am living in one of the most amaizing places I have laid my eyes on. I meet amaizing people a bit to fast; see new limits and make new moves I’m not sure about. I am well surrounded; some further some closer but beautiful people all around.
The Canadian Rockies have so much to show
Good frens from afar
That I miss as hell. and as much hidden. I am constantly amazed.
And there I am. Right where I should be at the moment. Feeling too much and building patiently a universe to myself.
♡
Roll the bones - Shakey Grave
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Isabelle
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Love reading your blogs! I really enjoy your writing style and I find your thoughts very relatable. I catch myself nodding along or wanting to say “so true!” aloud. Looking forward to have a chat next time we happen to be in the same country at the same time! Take care of my little sis for me xx