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Published: September 30th 2014
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You can be a teacher. You can't be a teacher. You can be a teacher- but only if you have a degree . . .
This relationship is quite lonely because it's very difficult to talk about him with my dad whom I live with, he's very sceptical of my boyfriend as he is of course 'a school kid' and he wants to do all this, but I really want to tell him everything about how kind he is and our plans for my trip in March if it ever happens, but when something goes wrong there's no way I can talk about it to him because 'we're not really together', even thought we both think or know we are. Everyone else thinks the same, but mum I miss her sometimes when I'm in England and she's in Wales- bless her.
As someone who was too late to apply herself for a chance to live in Japan, I was really diving in too deep and with a big dream. As previously said I was only considering the position of a teacher then I thought it would be cool to actually travel as a job- but I don't think it works quite like that here for a Holiday Rep. But when I went to Hong Kong I met many tour guides who basically had my dream job.
But the past four days I've been freaking out, the college have become a lot tighter on deadlines for assignments and I've only got until June to finish college and decide my position and future. I was so scared- my boyfriend and I had had the most heart breaking weekend discussing what wil happen because now he's at school 12 hours a day doing something called Juku or cram school, working so hard for not only himself but for us. Suddenly over come with grief that the door of becoming a teacher in Japan had been locked tight I brought myself to thinking 'do we have a future?'
And what made it worse were college students influencing me that he wasn't as genuine as I think, possibly that I'm naive or a dumbass for being with him for so long and I thought before I get myself in any deeper than I had done already, I should consider ending 'us'. When I asked what he thought he was confused, then angry and I was happy with his response. He wasn't going to give up on me. And I accused him of things all the girls suggested he's doing and instantly I regretted saying it, I felt I'd lost his trust- it was two in the morning and I was so tired and worried, thankfully he recognised this and after a while thought nothing of it and told me to sleep, the next day it was like nothing had happened and we were just going to have to be strong about the whole thing.
In fact he came up with even more options- he comes to England to study, That was something I was dead against at first- I wanted to fly over to Japan so that we can be together. But these days I'm being more flexible like mum's offer I went to Wales to work which I basically laughed off at first but turned out to be a good idea.
He'd always wanted to travel as well and he loved Britain when he came in July. It would be so nice to see him in London once or twice a week to visit him at uni while I work- if I do.
The other day he put me on to his mother who is the nicest lady ever, she gave me a few words of encouragement which my boyfriend translated for me as 'never give up'. I smiled and laughed as I tried to talk to her in little Japanese, unfortunately I'm not familiar with Kansai and apparently people in Osaka hate speaking standard Japanese to my dismay.
So this will be yet another book I shall buy to learn, I doubt WaterStones in Kent will do it, but maybe Foils in Totenham would. I hate buying books online, even though we get a sample.
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Colloquial-Kansai-Japanese-Dialects-Language/dp/0804837236/ref=sr_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1412107188&sr=1-4&keywords=kansai
I've just decided if I can't live and work in Japan, especially with my boyfriend then just visiting will still do me, most people do that; they work hard all year around and not mind because they get their reward of their annual holiday.
Update on work, I didn't get the sales assistant work in a toy shop despite the girl liking me for my Japanese skills because of my lack of flexibility but I have an induction for Winter Wonderland at my department store which will mean dressing up as an Elf. Fun!
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