It has taken me 60+ years to finally figure out how important beginnings are to my peace of mind. I like beginnings; in fact, I kinda thrive on them. The converse is also true: I detest the mundane; I kinda suffocate when things become predictable. One would think I'd have caught on to this pattern long ago.....say, oh, after my second divorce, or my fifth job change, or my fourth "new hobby". One would think I'd have clued into how this "I love beginnings" pattern has kept repeating itself in every relationship--marital, parental, familial, platonic, work, human, non-human. But, no. There was a third divorce, and, after that, two more attempts at a long term relationship before I embraced the reality that marriage and I were not meant to be together. It also explains why the
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