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Published: July 21st 2012
My best advice yet
My best friend quoting the best advice for this whole process.
The past few weeks have been very challenging. Amongst other stresses I grudgingly accept, it would appear that the travel Gods have been testing me by making me late for work almost every day. I’m assuming this is just to give me a taste of the challenges ahead. I know what you’re thinking: “Late for work!? Is that all?” But no that is not all, my luck during the past few weeks have been unbelievably coincidental to the point where I had to assume I was being punished. Such punishments resulting in the following situations:
. Attempted hitch-hiking
. Over £80 spent on cabs
. Talking to myself, yelling at the sky
. Losing the will to live
. Crying hysterically on a train
. Publically threatening my I-Phone
. Calling a 70 year old woman a bitch
Like I said, it’s been a rough few weeks and to top off my experience, my husband and I agreed a sale price with a buyer yesterday. The house has only been on the market for two weeks. Scott, who is currently paying to live in two places, was over the moon. I on the other hand didn’t know how to feel. Everything is happening and for once in my life, my plans are being put into action faster than expected and I’m overwhelmed. The one side of me is saying “yes go you! This is what you wanted, you can save money sooner, Scott can save money and you’re both so close to living your dreams” The more rational, ridged side of me is simply saying “You’re about a month and a signed contract away from being homeless for a year, Muzletov”
So yesterday I vented. I visited my best friend across the street and told him I was pretty close to a nervous breakdown. He poured me a glass of wine, cooked me dinner and just listened. I think everyone can agree that in this world it’s difficult to find friends who can shut up for a second and listen to you without just waiting for their turn to speak or turning the story back to them. Not only that but he made me write a list of all of my fears in life. So I did. I wrote things like getting eaten by a shark, drowning, no-one missing me when I’m gone, our trip ending in divorce, my husband no longer finding me attractive with my frizzy wet hair etc. At the end of that list, he wrote two very important things:
1) Never (Underlined three times) lose the will to live
2) Never (Underlined three times) look back
He said if Scott and I are going to do this, we have to move forward with no regrets. His exact words were “Just throw your knickers to the wind.” At the time I just laughed and thought it was a funny thing to say and a witty title for this entry but it does have some meaning. It’s simple….be brave and fearless. No matter what things in life try to hold you back, push on with force and no restrictions. Be and feel free.
My friend then made me burn the list of fear. At that moment I pictured myself under water freeing myself from the chains of an anchor, fighting to swim back up to the surface and take a long deep breath of new air. So from now on, Scott and I start a new rat race. We have loads of planning to do. I’ve made a list of things we need to buy. We’ve decided on this baggage toolwhich I think will be helpful for us and my family of travellers https://www.gapyeartravelstore.com/Craghoppers-Roller-Wheel-Rucksack-p-209.html
and our itinerary is shaping up nicely! What’s even better is that the gentleman buying the house is a first time buyer with no furniture. Hopefully he’ll want to help us out. But just in case, we’d better start looking into some storage options.
I will endeavor to keep you all updated but for now I’ll leave you with a quote that Scott’s best man used in his speech at our wedding. It’s something I didn’t quite understand at the time but with a bit of research and an onward journey, it’s become quite the mantra:
“Trust your hear t if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backward. Honor the past but welcome the future.” By E.E Cummings
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