At the end of the day I always have these two by my side.
I love catching people out in a lie, it's one of those sick satisfying things I secretly enjoy and today I caught a big one.
I've been playing cat and mouse games with two companies for the last three weeks now, I came back from Berlin early to interview someone in Brno (the Czech Republics second largest city) who then said they couldn't make the interview. I politely told them that I had come back a day early and this had been organised weeks in advance so if there is another time it would be appreciated, after several emails and phone calls I officially started the cat and mouse games. Both with this lady and her colleagues, this morning I received an email from one of the tutors saying to me he had gotten in contact with an NGO which does a lot on safe sex work in the Czech Republic, counselling services and HIV checks etc. I was given 5 minutes notice and told I had an interview with the most stupid directions possible and ultimately after 2 hours of searching I couldn't find the place. I got back to my hotel room and started some phone calls to
track this place down and apologise, the NGO was kind enough (well the staff) to calm the somewhat pissed off director down and hopefully book me another interview time.
Whilst I was looking on the website I saw they had an office in Brno, "huh" I thought "that's a coincidence" so I looked up the website and nonetheless they are the same NGO. I then called them back after my spider senses told me to and asked if the lady I was supposed to meet had been there last week. The conversation went like this:
"Last week I was supposed to meet with ... in your Brno office but she said she was travelling to Prague. Is this correct"
"Yes she was here last week."
"Yes Thursday and Friday"
"She wasn't sick?"
"Not that I could see no."
People frustrate me...
As I have mentioned before, people here seem to hate foreigners, particularly some of the NGO's I have talked to. Others have been incredible and really lovely particularly the ones in Berlin but I have never had such a runaround as I have had in Prague, I'm hoping once I can secure this interview it might change the way people feel but it can be very tiresome. Experiences like this haven't shaken my love or passion for journalism but strengthened it instead, because ideally it's up to journalists to show people the truth and set facts and stories straight. It's almost like I want to grab people by the shoulders, shake them and say "just because I'm a foreigner and may not speak Czech doesn't mean I have a life like you think I do back in Australia! I'm not rich and I'm not famous and I work bloody hard at what I do!" Lol.
Tonight we are making a second attempt at meeting some of the girls from my course at the beer gardens for dinner and soccer. I am actually looking forward to it and hopefully this time will be a little more successful, exchanging numbers also helps!
I have this thing where I tend to take the blame for others for mistakes, I know if I'm wrong or who's at fault usually but I think it's more justification for mine or their mistakes that I struggle with. "Maybe they didn't show up because they got lost" "maybe they don't like me so it's my fault". Since I've been over here I am learning to take the blame less than before and I am seeing people in a different light. I think this comes from my primary school days where I was bullied heavily and ultimately always copped the blame for the bully's actions. Now looking back on it when I was a child I was in the right and the bully had no right to punch me or to exclude me and it really came down to the fault of the teachers for not believing me. Or when I was dancing and again bullied atrociously, continually left out of things, never talked to, ignored etc so then I would exclude myself from the group in a form of protective manner. It has taken me nearly 4 years from the time I have finished dancing to realise how horribly I was treated by those young women and the repercussions it has had on me today. I wish I could have put the mind I have now on the body of my teenage self to stand up to these people, it was interesting when I spoke to someone the other week when I did a ballet class who mentioned the mentality of the group that it hit. Unfortunately that mentality of these girls was taken out on me.
It's little things like that which change the way you are.
I think when I go home I might look at ways to advocate against bullying, I think it's something that can't be ignored any longer.
I probably sound like a complete wanker in these blog posts but hey, don't like them, don't read them! Lol.
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