Sunday Exhausted Sunday

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Sunday Bloody Sunday, Sunday Exhausted Sunday.

Good song. Anyways, it's Sunday (yet again) and that means my brain is barely functioning right now. I was just telling Russell and Cat this but for whatever reason when I do tutoring my brain can at least still function at the end of the day, but when I teach actual classes my brain is pretty much fried at the end of the day. So at the end of a Sunday (the second day in a row of at least 7 hours of class a day) my brain is almost completely fried. I stop being able to really talk and just kinda sit there listening if I go out with people. Tonight Kelvin, Cat and I went to look for a movie but there weren't any in English showing so late and we hadn'te eaten yet so we decided to eat dinner instead of doing a movie. We ate at a really nice place called the Pizza King. Stone messaged me in the middle of it with a "Do you want to marry me?:-)" Which honestly scared me a bit but I had just been being sarcastic with him so I have a feeling he was doing the same with me (hopefully). He's on a train back from his mother's place so I can't call him right now and ask him what that was all about but I'll get it rectified shortly enough (as he is coming here as soon as he gets to Dalian).

Someone made a comment that it's not a good idea to have a boyfriend while I'm here, maybe because I won't be here very long or for whatever reason so I'm going to tell everyone what I think about this matter because I'm sure this person wasn't the only one to wonder about this. When I was younger I hated having relationships when I went somewhere. Everywhere I went I would always find a great person right when I was about to leave that place and it made it really difficult to leave - whether it was camp or a cruise or another country. So when I went to Costa Rica it was nothing different. I had a really awful time trying to leave Costa Rica because I had just met a really awesome guy who I really liked a lot (named German). Now German tried to teach me that leaving is a part of life and that it's not something that anyone should make a big deal out of it. He told me that he traveled too much to even have e-mail and when I left there would be no way to contact him again so we may as well have the best time while we could. At the time this was almost impossible to teach myself and it was only after I had left Costa Rica that this really did sink in. A big huge part of my life is leaving people, whether I make that the case or not. Even if I try and stay in one place forever there will constantly be other people moving in and out of my life. So what I've decided from that is that I may as well make whatever I can out of whatever relationship I can while I have them. If I'm really close to that person then that's fine as long as I still keep in mind that leaving is simply a part of life. I try to teach this to the people I'm with just like German taught it to me and so far it's worked really well and made my life a lot easier. As for the "boyfriend" part of things "boyfriend" is just a title for a really close relationship with someone, nothing more nothing less and as I accept all kinds of relationships for whatever time I can have them I don't mind having a boyfriend or not having one. I don't want anyone to think I'm over here trying to find one because that's not true. I just seem to have found two boys who I am extremely attracted to (and who are attracted to me, just one more than the other). C'est la vie.

As for another matter, Michael is continuing to go through hell. He tried to take Lydia to the hospital today for a check-up appointment and the hospital wouldn't see her because she doesn't have permission from the government to have the baby. So get this - in order for the baby to be legally born the couple must be married first and then get permission from the government. As I said before Michael and Lydia are waiting for the US government to send something back confirming that Michael really is single before he can actually get married and then after getting married has to get permission to have the baby. Now the baby is due in May and my question was what happens if the baby comes before the paperwork arrives. Michael's answer was that he doesn't know but will do his best to find out soon. Almost every time Michael talks about the Chinese government now he's bashing them.

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[Molly]

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I used to llive in Hunan teaching English and I have been reading your blog for months. I can relate to so many things you say. I hope things are going better for you, it sounds like it. I miss China and hope to come back in the Fall, but reading your blog makes me feel like I am back.