Day 5.2

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So after I left, I got my key stuck in the door, missed the first bus to city and the second one was late. Got lost on the route and then got off at a place unfamiliar to me and got lost in the city.

But I figured it all out which in a way was nice since I felt like I was able to figure out my own mistake. Though it left me flustered and drained. The Hunt Museum was good. Most of the girls said it was "eh" or it "sucked." So our tour guide wasn't doing jigs while juggling and singing Minnie Riperton. It was a bit dry. But I think I enjoyed it more because I knew some of the history before going and so knew what I was listening for/to. Thank you Regents and Professor Stanley Palmer at UTA. I enjoyed it.

I feel better now that I'm back at home. It's a extremely foggy day and drearily cold. Almost bitter. I cannot wait for the Spring, though it tends to rain a bit more in the new two-three months- the temperatures will be much more bearable according to our guide. I am excited about her being around tonight at 6. I'm hoping for some meal money again. If not, it'll be nice to talk to someone. Tonight is not the night to drink according to a friend from Kilmury. all the weirdos are at the pubs tonight. Normally, college kids are home for Fri-Sun morning. Sunday night is the BIG night at The Lodge pub. Don't know if I'll go. It's the day before classes start and I NEED to go to bed. I have a lot of stuff to get done on Monday as well as classes.

All of us are craving routines. We're all so awkward going about our days because they're all different right now and we're out all day shopping for necessities, figuring out buses, taxis, the campus, our sleep cycles- ugh it' a bit more overwhelming than I gathered it'd be. I thought having done Europe a few times, I had this. But I think realizing that I won't be able to come home in a few more days is killing me right now. The fact I will have to somehow adjust and cope to the culture of drinking and extreme profanity with my Baptist background- what was I thinking...I still feel like I won't fit in. I pray pray pray pray PRAY when classes start I can maybe find some older students that can enjoy a drink without having to go out and get drunk. Many of the guys I've met so far are the young 1st years who anxiously drag us girls out with them. Or maybe it's because we're gullible American girls. It's strange being the oldest in the group. Either way, I need to meet some graduate students or at least some 4th years...I think I'll feel more comfortable with them. I love the girls I do get to hang with, please don't think poorly of them. But many of them have never gone over seas, all are under 21, many are sophomores, and many leave near each other state-wise. So I'm an odd ball.

I think once school starts, I have my routines down, time will fly and things will feel less uncertain. I'll get to see Mom and Dad in a few weeks and once they've come and gone it'll be nearing the end. For now, I'm just looking forward to a all new House MD this upcoming week.

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Comments

[LeAnn]

Day 5.2
Yeah girl, you'll totally find people when you start school, you'll find people of your own moral beliefs and people of your own social ones too, and remember these kids are babies and are here to make all the mistakes in the world, drinking too much, parting too much that was never your personality, it's not mine either, but you'll feel great rellief when you meet a grad student or another senior like yourself who has their head on straight and priorities in check, don't feel weird for not being in their click, you are the normal one not the other way around. Love ya girl can't wait to catch ya on FB and chat with ya

[Paul]

There you go :) Look for the positives :) I hadn't appreciated that you were the oldest in the group. "I think once school starts, I have my routines down, time will fly and things will feel less uncertain" <- exactly. You're out of sorts because there is no routine, your sleep is out of whack and you're encountering difficulties each day, BUT, you ARE overcoming them :) You have your phone back, you're beginning to figure out bus routes and where you are in the city. It's coming together. And your other post on FB and here have sounded encouraging when you've been in a good frame of mind. Keep at it, it will work itself out :) *HUGS*