day 6 of 24 - escape

I'm about to leave for the day. To aj's barbie, and then out of town to Darwin.

I can never seem to get away from the problems i have back in waco, my life. I hate worrying about money and making ends meet. Money isn't everything, but its definately something, and it's hard to co-ordinate anything so remotely. I wish i were back, and i feel bad because i want to truly enjoy the moment of being here with good friends. I think about red, and it only makes the situation worse.

I'm happy to leave town now. I welcome the escape. But i know ill have to deal with it tomorrow, or the day after and i hate having that loom.

Though i think about her, i'm hoping to leave it behind here, though i feel more than moved to write to her, or about her. i don't know. I need sleep. I need time to myself, and with God, and the internal council of my better nature and due process.

I had that decemberists song in my head [both go down], so i spent a couple of hours finding an old crappy guitar, tuning it, and learning how to play it. Pretty and melancholy. Ha. Oh the parallel imagery.

Happy sabbath everyone. Have a great week. :D

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