Published: August 11th 2010August 11th 2010
Hello everyone! As of this post I leave for New York in 7 days, and Finland in 9.
It is quite a funny thing, exchange. While it is a great opportunity for growth and development, we must realize that we can only grow by hardships. That being said, it makes me a bit fearful for the semester. How can I change if not through trails? But avas, I am already on course and so.. it cannot be stopped now.
I am not inherently sad about leaving, really. I know that I will come back, and little will have changed (and yet lots will) as my family is a pretty boring family. I will not miss anything that much as I never really attatched myself to anything here; other than people. The only thing that makes me sad, is thinking of how sad this is going to make my family. I can envision my mom coming home from dropping me off at the airport, walking straight into my room, and crying into my pillow.
It is just an odd feeling. I wanted this so much and now that it is almost here, my heart isn't in it so much. Perhaps that will change. We shall see.
Anyways, expect emotional turmoil as your departure approaches and do not beat yourself up for it. You're doing something huge, and life-changing; the greatest rewards require the greatest sacrifices.
That is all for now I suppose.