My Time Will Come

Gosh.

Guys ;A;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bL3GR4iAW0&feature=related
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I'm just so.. like. I'm in tears, but I think they are good. I mean. I just.. I can't let anything stop me. I know money is an issue but..screw it! I'm not going to stop this until like..I mean. If my friends, just as seemingly 'average' as me, can do this; why can't I? I mean, who is to say that I can't do it. There are people that come from NOTHING and go further than I might ever go. So WHY. Why can't I do this? See. I Can. There is only, ONLY God standing in the way of this but..heck, y'know, I believe this was his idea and if not, he at least wants me to have it.

God has placed before me hurdles, just as you have them too, but the harder we have to work; the higher we have to jump over them, think how much more peaceful our rest is. Think of those days when we work really hard, how we fall asleep fast and deeply: as opposed to the lazy days where sleep is harder to achieve. It's the same. See? So, how much more blessed am I that normal everyday things make me happy. How wonderful that I can break into tears because I can speak a new sentence in Finnish. Just. How glorious is that?

I don't have a disability or disease, no, in fact, my 'disabilities' are my /abilities/. They are my strength and courage. I am so blessed because, not everyone is able to truly enjoy everyday life. But when it comes down to it, isn't that just the true goal? Be happy. And it is for me.

I haven't dreamed of my future past foreign exchange just yet, nothing has struck a chord within me, but.. that's ok. Because, this is all I need for now. To be honest, foreign exchange, even just the process of application, has kept me working at 80%, sometimes higher, this whole year. I guess.. I'm just.. trying to appreciate what I have. To step forward and realize all that has been placed before me, and all that is yet to come. And believe me when I say, there is MUCH to come.

I hope you too can find that within yourself.

Thank you for reading.

Love,
Michelle.

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