i have the stomach flu. pues, pienso.

Egypt:
charcoal outlined almond eyes
power of staring behind thick lashes and ashey skin,
there is force behind the lurid tounge,
and muscled fingers that grasp you tight.
merchants scream obscenities,
amidst the traffic,
everything is a shad of beige,
the colors blur next to the bread stands and trash packs.
allah looms over,
blackned veils thrown carfully around throbbing proteined buns.
my white shoes have wilted brown,
this city is a filthy combination of small public spaces and objectivity,
the pueblo spirit is friendly,
the food oily and light,
my spirit stands strong against
the pyramids,
the skin,
it all weighs my stature small,
En'Sha'Allah,
civilization. born.

Spain:
autonomous communities.
just one pueblo.
this city sleeps without god,
i wonder how.

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i am edging between summer plans,
barcelona: the joys of living illegal and impovershed
san francisco: at age 21 with too few friends,
these days we are dispersed, but it's home. and my bed, it's big.

between two worlds,
at least,
as always,
i am straddling lanes
between davis bikepaths,
san francisco city streets,
treading cobblestones in madrid,

i am not ready to say goodbye,
but it will all happen for me anyway.

fabi to padova,
dani to the states,
marco remains here,
promoted, ready to adult himself.

i am

ready to start a life,
hopscotch into dome life,
and grassroots,
and carrotjuice in the morning.

i am ready to start love,
and be in love,
and cuddle in the afternoon.

i am ready for quizzes,
and tests,
and learning inside the classroom.

but i dont know to do this

family,
i don't have a clue,
how to handle all the comfort,
the stability,
the same-ness

i think there will be a cradle to rock me to sleep
comprised of old friends,
and new air,
and self controlled self sufficiancy,

i am nervous to stay here,
continue my world of the irreal,
the play.

but going back.
20 hours by plane.
infinity of mind.
i am just scared.

what will catch me when i fall?

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4 italians in this apartment right now.
i can't tell you how much pizza is sitting on our dining room table.

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