bonne nuit...late night thoughts...

am just relaxing at home, calm down a little bit and hearing a special song which is connected to someone...39 days...thats not quite a long time. when i try to sleep, i lay down in my bed, thinking of africa or just feeling it...my body is prickling and my head is in trouble. there will be some people, i will miss very very much and that makes me sometimes sad. but only in a few minutes, in dark and stormy nights like today, when a little bit fear is also in my room. then there are a bit of anxious feelings. not often.

most of the time, i am only absolutel excited, nervous, curious, full of power and positive energies!!!!! i love my plans and my life. everything works at the moment...nearly everything.

will i really love it to be there?
sometimes i think, i will love it so much that i don´t wanna come back to germany. i don´t know. i have so much plans, visions, dreams and love in me...the future is now!!!! and every day. just NOW!!!

which contacts will stay or get closer than before, which ones will i lose? will i change my personality? will i grow up???? *smile*
questions and questions i don´t have answers for.

my vaccines are nearly finished, some dates with some doctors´ to take some medicine with me the next 3 weeks again. after examinations i will have to buy some things and to plan some things for departure. have to make up my room, put some things on the roof, ready to leave.

don´t forget anything!!!!

have to try to sleep now. bonne nuit!!! faites des beaux rêves...au revoir!

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