sufiyo

Well what do we know...? Here I am again.. on my way 'home'! :) ...like a lifetime ago... yet so familiar ... In true Sufiyo tradition, this report comes somewhat late, though I've been thinking of you in my heart regularly :) Life in the tropical rainforest has been very good to me. Together with Luke I have lived what feels like 3 years of heart and soul in the past 10 months - can you believe it's been that long??!! And as if that doesn't blow my mind every time I consider it, we have news! No, we're not breeding... yet ;) It seems the tantalising tropics have had their way with me and I have been converted... I'd never have thought it a year ago, but now I'm not sure I can envision settling ... read more

So there's been a fair amount of turbulence up here, internally mostly... more of that old up-down-around & around-inside-out stuff, working its way through to a higher level of harmony and creating beautiful new possibilities! I have so much to share with you... but it’ll have to wait for now… But the short of it is... We may have very well found Paradise here in Far North Queensland (Port Douglas has us at the moment) ... and so, it seems we are looking at making a move up here! Seems to be the Adelaidean trick actually... we have met several fellow ex-Adelaiders up here that apprarently, just like us, came for a holiday and either never went back after seeing the light! SURPRISE! I am coming home! (whatever/wherever that is now!) Now I know I ... read more

Is this a new reality dawning upon my fractured spirit, or just PMT? I suppose every woman has asked herself this at some stage. But who ever knows the answer? I guess in a couple days time I’ll have clearer insight… either that or my entire universe of this past day or so will have warped itself into a black hole where I’ll be wondering how I ever doubted my sanity and have forgotten this whole episode as if it were some vague dream. With Luke away for almost a week (time has done that illusion thing and didn’t he just leave yesterday?), I’ve been left pondering my existence. My existence as a woman on her own two feet, in her power? A woman as half a couple… I’ve not been feeling like either lately actually… ... read more

Ahh! My Rise & Shine to Peace & Power routine - I’m into action today! Outa bed @ 6.30, guzzle some freshly filtered, negatively ionised, pure alkaline, crystal clear Mossman Gorge water, take a beach walk and collect a few shells… and then some frangipani blossoms to decorate our room with, finish my 1 litre before breakfast commitment, make a rainbow veggie juice - and all by 8am My intention for the day is to be for and within myself, playing, creating, doing as I wish, being love. Traced my name and an affirmation in the sand in large rounded letters - ahh how satisfying - and spontaneously stripped naked for a swim in the ocean… stinger season must be over, yeah… what a delicious way to begin the day! I am so empowered and at ... read more

Saturday mornings are for the Mossman Markets, a 15km/10 minute speedy drive to the next town for the exceptionally satisfying purchase of superbly grown, serviced and priced mangoes and avocados. Then there’s the little Asian lady who picks her cacao pods just for us now hehe - just $2 each! And with each one casing 30-40 really RAW chocolate beans, who are we to refuse?! Though sucking the lemon flavoured flesh is a bit of an effort I confess, and one whole pod per day is a bit much, even more of an effort to maintain - but the work pays off with oodles of beans for smoothies, home made ice-cream etc etc….. And we are seemingly enrolling many around us, in the flavours and benefits of RAW foods! It’s so exciting to see someone taste ... read more

Luke leaves for his Big Adventure! Another totally exhausting day in Cairns. What have I become that I can no longer handle/deal with the ‘city’ anymore? Cairns is not even as populated as Adelaide by half! In fact, the streets all appear quite empty even… But the lights and heavy energy of shopping centres have always sent me into vague and heavy states - I wonder if there has ever been any research or proven info on effects of fluorescent lighting on the physical body as well as one’s state of mind. Undoubtedly. Just as research has proven that sunlight stimulates production of serotonin in our brain, the chemical that is responsible for assisting us to sleep as well as feeling OK? And someone came up with the awesome idea of bottling sunlight and creating it ... read more

Had a traditional tarot reading today… and wow… thankfully I overcome my initial hesitancy over the $ as it was so what I needed. My attitude card fell from the deck almost immediately when I began to shuffle: ‘Queen of Cups’: Who I Am. ‘Queen of Pentacles’: My Attitude (note for self) - I’ve always known and felt that my environment is my inspiration, because a scattered/chaotic/bland environment created precisely this in my internal mind/world no inspiration. I choose my power and to create my environment to be just what I want and need, I will be… scrap that! I AM inspiration, grace & vivid vitality ‘I am the Magician of my own mind and being! ... read more

Hollow and helplessness after yet another day of emotional violence. Simultaneous steel traps of stubbornness withhold love and acceptance from each other. When will enough be enough?? Lately I feel my best when I am alone. So why can I not acknowledge to myself that I need space and time to myself and that perhaps it is best for both us for me to take that time? I have neglected my SELF. This feels good, my creative, radiant essence. Why do I not seem able to maintain both blissful states of being? In love with my life, partner AND self?! Attachment to pleasing… And if I am purely focused on the pleasing of another, how can I be for myself also? So, why be purely focused on the pleasing of another then? Ah-haaa…..... read more

Dreamed I had green tics in my skin last night, possibly due to my pre-sleep waking thoughts of parasites crawling around my body yechh! My dream job - ice cream girl Surprisingly, I’m really enjoying it! A little disappointed with the lack of supervisory inspiration and motivation though, this could be such a fun and ‘wicked’ environment to work in but the girls I’ve shared time with so far seem mostly vacant… or somewhere else? They don’t appear to be enjoying their work and participate in small talk of their drinking, smoking, unhealthy eating habits. Something in me - ego?- loves opportunity such as this (having serving to myself) to get it all together to show em (my employers and the customers) what I can do. I am worthy damn it - you’ll see! You’ll love ... read more