a hitchhiked car. radio plays soft chinese music. xie, listn. truths. u talk 2 driver. u know, i cant trust u, even want u n him gettin closer. your laughin 2 him dont hurt,no, even wish u n him get 2gether. now. car full of silence. only that music. xie.u know. wanted, want, 2 quit. but cant, am 2 weak. prodigy. beer. she sleepin naked next me, i cover her. we travelin with eeros n his chick. went 2 tuanshan. some bad xperience with local people, em only thinkin in, our, money.however, some nice architektur. 4got bag with handicraft,material,n instruments in [View Full Entry]

---

---

southan yunnan. jinghong. entered some parks by jumpin wall so as 2 avoid d fee. met chinese girl, with whom i started 2 travel some.] took us 5 days 2 arrive manguangshan, time of which much was spend in fuckin, must xcuse myself, am goin chinese style: not quality, but quantety: all my orgasm r 2 early. oftnn rain. i love dai architekture. good food. 1 y reis, some 1,2, y sidedishes. beer 3 y. 7 y=1 us. yesterday 5 bbq sticks 1 y. sleped ibn temple. i show of with my prodidy songs. c? now , havin company, feel need [View Full Entry]

---

---

mama fragte nachm tagesablauf. so then transformed in2 short story. ein schlafsaal im suedlichem yunnan. china.moin. schlaftrunkn augn oeffnend schaut er in xies schlafende gsicht.schoenheit nkann selbst im unschoenem gfundn werdn n unschoen isse nich ma. er schliess augn.halbsclaf, tagtraemen. augn auf, lesn. stufnweises erwachen des saales. sie erwacht. er erhascht einen blick auf ihre hochsitzenden brustwarzn die sich leicht unta ihrem gelben tschirt abzeichnen. sein glied ersteift. hab hunga, sagt sie, steht auf n geht zum gratis intanet anna reception. er duscht, mastrubiert, checkt [View Full Entry]

---

---

(sorry, mo ect than yunnan) tea.3.5y$ snowbeer. prodigy. watchin people. have only torn shirts n pants. socks unusable. study faces. true:female faces, couse is em i look at, n is in em i c most differences of origen. get interested in sociologie. study of culture of mankind. kazantzaki wrote pure happieness is when our desire n gods bcame samesame. isnt want,search,road,need ,of god consequence of beauty of inside? isnt want,search, of god, in order 2 get beauty of inside hipocritic falseness? cant i stop travel? have we constant traveller phycho problem we cant resolve? does travel enc [View Full Entry]

---

---

lost old diary.now lost this 1 2, but with much luck re-got it. got 50 000 mushroom bag. took half.felt somethgin commin, a heavyness, drwsy. sittin i watched mountain, sunset again, i was able 2 look n transform it, mountain, in2 a , hm, halluzination, or somethin, some seconds, but mind, control, returned. if i would focus i could have the trip, but. 2nd half vientinne.yes i sure go japan. i went 2 temple, prepared 2 focus. but its comin was 2 soft.walked 2 nature, felt it stronger. but, again. no. alimentation change: less soap. mo 2000 sticky rice n 2000 [View Full Entry]

---

---

m. xay. camp in field. mornin fuckin cold.smokin.hip hop.hitchhikin hiper difficult. 2 days 200km m.sing was fantastic . bird, sorry-,tribalwatchin at the mornin market. village itself ugly,dusty, but u dont go there 4 the village o nature,at least i didnt. thai -laos is simile.yes laos is mo laid back, outback, less tourism,less party, a touch mo xpensive,worse roads mo noodle soap, sticky rice. thai mo ibizza,rice with sweet sour pork,white male withthai female,food tsans till very late.thai is mo vang vieng. again, fuckers, i dont write 4 u. i just note down what mind tells me. o. no. [View Full Entry]

---

---

oftn thought 2 let the story b, opened ended with home is nowhere. im however banalizin it with an endin 2 typical 4 me. sorry am puritanic. 2 days passed.went upstream, n turnin east,fallowed a sidearm,mo ltlle ,mo pituresque. oh how i like the sunsets. watch em all. now: sit front of river,which rins at this part slowly, bottomed by round browngreenish overgrown stones.some small rocks its islands, it flowes tru a very nice vally.green gras, violet n white flowers. near hills climbin,fallin ,allmost vertically all around me; treecovered with only heads bare,it b-in massive,majestetic l [View Full Entry]

---

---

am in goodmood ,sabaideein everybody, grinnin at children. vientinne,like bangkok, not hot but humid, clima that groggies u. lift vangvieng.strange,beutyfull hillsiuletts overlapin n gettin lighter in distance greet me. town hipertouristic. nice only nature n the banboobridges crossin the river. 1st nite. camp next river. hide valluables in bushes,lock tent, go out 2 dance. went campin on other side. seems cheapest:10000. prefered thai 2 laos .here i feel mo walkin dollarbill. all in my life is phicologic. difficult 2 have nobody 2 speak with but a fuckin bad quality notebook, which conte [View Full Entry]

---

---

meditacion s relfection. reflektion is meditation. couse egoproblems surroundet, friendshiped, myself with bigger loosers than me. after boyhood strated xperimentation with drugs, 4 deepenin, sensibilisation. got not deeper, mo sensible,but stuck 2 em.traveled, even tru this couldn satisfy my self i kept travellin, searchin as i liked 2 say. got loonier. dreamin took over. now aged 58. wanted 2 c, 2 understand, but 2 c u need eyes n i, but. sun heat up, look at nature, force the buttrefly 2 lan on me again. but, hm. so i get up , prepare tent n go on. walk slowly.read,smoke. walk.eat little. [View Full Entry]

---

---

i dont like 2 c reflctions of me, they depress me. the yeas have past 2 fast, inside grew nothin, only the outside. i look like a tramp, cloths show signs of carelessness n travellin. events of life,reflexions, led me 2 a life in which knowledge raisn coninually on me.but im not soacked by it, rebellion,ignoranz, protx me. what a waste of life. the bambooforest im crossin offres a nice place 4 tent, plain, with light fallin on it. i clean it n put tent. prepare 2 smoke. smoke. yes, i think opium deepens my depression, nbut its a god mate, [View Full Entry]

---

---