I don’t think you’ll know the feeling, In fact I know you wont know the feeling, Of what its like to be me, Because quite simply you are not me, To this point I have had an interesting life, I’m slowly realizing what I want out of this life, Perhaps I will never get there, But I plan to get there. And perhaps I wont get as close as you, But its my life I’ll live for me and not for you, Im an idiot in some respect, With love definitely but those I love I always respect, My biggest [View Full Entry]

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So where are we at now? Still without an idea, Still with no clue, At 25 you may expect something Something that you know Or something you can do Something your good at Or a skill you’ve learnt And a few I’ve done And I’m happy with those, But the more I learn The more I find out what im missing And I don’t think I care I think im supposed to and its expected, I think its me fighting everybody sometimes, Well not everyone, But the pressure is there, To not do what I am really after, And have wanted [View Full Entry]

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some writing, i'm going to start putting my poetry up here, this isnt all poetry, infact, its very little, but more will come up as time goes on.. :) Listening to Cat Stevens is probably not the best thing, But I struggle to think why not, When at low points in my life, I reach for the most depressing of songs, I’m not sure why, its just how I do it, I’m fucking lonely. I’m 25 in a couple of weeks and it brings me to tears that the ony friend I’ve had that has stuck by me so close, as [View Full Entry]

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How quick can it change the feel of another, Like lightning striking and you run for cover, The exuberance of youth and all of its struggles, All for the want and need of some huggles. Joy and pain as you start something new, Till the colours come through and your no longer you, And in turmoil you scream and try to make right, And before you know it it’s a fucking huge fight, When just days before even hours sometimes, There was not a sliver of the warning signs, Patience and time are something I was not privy too, A war [View Full Entry]

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Humanity is a strange and unique place to be, Surrounded by the populace in a ragind sea, Under and over we bounce off and into each other, And as rain falls we all crowd under cover. Living so close and so packed in a tin, Makes me wonder if these people are just dim, Have they not felt the peace that space provides, And how happy we are without being squashed on both sides. A rat race is a funny name for what we do far more often, No time to do the menial, to lighten and and to soften, Hard [View Full Entry]

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I am forced into existence I am forced into pain I have no choice It is my pain. I feel alone, It is only myself, I can only experience My time, my life Everyone can say, yes I understand, Everyone can say I’ve been there you can get through, But not me, It is hard and I cannot cope My mind is blowing I do not know anything Yet I am forced to know everything I need time, But no one sees that I need space but no one lets me I want my roar to be laid by me, It [View Full Entry]

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had to delete 5, :) lol, I let myself get hurt again. I didn’t think that she could do it. I didn’t know some people can be so cruel. I didn’t know, but that’s ignorance for you. I don’t think it feels the same, I do feel like a bit of a twit. To have fallen in and drowned in the pool, But that’s what life is sometimes, something new, I had time to think on the plane, To try and make everything fit. But I think I’m not equipped with the right tool, To understand how to get screwed over, [View Full Entry]

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been on tour for a bıt now. hıs keyboard ıs really strange. letters all over the place lol. umm trıp ıs goıng really well place ıs really pretty and the tour group ıs great. ç ğ ş some of the letters on thıs thıng lol um ın a place on the agean sea at the moment, really pretty everyone ıs great and havıng a ball people are nıce but have lımıted tıme on thıs thıng so shall keep ıt short. have anzac day ın 2 days whıch wıll be ıntense somethıng lıke ten thousand people wıll be there huge! goıng to [View Full Entry]

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Well i've been lazy for a while now, and i've been doing so much in the last few days so i guess i better tell you all about it! I arrived in england last week i think wednesday, and travelled back up to Hessle to see my Aunty Sally again, and dad was going up there too so it was a good time to tour yorkshire and see where mum was born and grew up and played etc. So we started on friday, wait, forgot to mention that uncle neil took us up the no access to public tower of his [View Full Entry]

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Thats right i'm back where the beer is warm and its always raining~! Except for today! which is good because there's lots happening today! Dad's arrived in the country, and he just called me he's making good time heading to cardiff where he's doing something to do with ships, lol, then coming up here to Hull for the next couple of days, and if he makes it here by about 3 this arvo, he'll be joining us in a climb to the top of the humber bridge! Which is why it mustnt rain today, i'll be 120metres i think, (prob got [View Full Entry]

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