San82

Sandra Lucas
Joined: May 29th 2009
Logged in: April 26th 2011
Believe in me, I know you've waited for so long.

Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong.

Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems.

Believe in me, cause I was made for chasing dreams.


(Staind - believe)


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The new campsite in Margaret River suits me fine and I finally spoke to Dennis again this afternoon. After a week of being deprived from a working phone signal and internet connection, we finally managed to get a date on Skype. Now, Skype is a great program, don´t get me wrong, but it´s nowhere near the actual sensation of being close to a loved one. There´s no familiar smell, no sense of touch, and often not even a clear sound or video image. So, after Dennis and I say our goodbyes again, I turn my gaze outward and stare down the streets of Margaret River. I fly home in seven days andsSuddenly, a week seems infinitely long. The seven days ahead appear an endless term. I sag around town, dragging my feet behind me. When I ... read more

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´Hi there. Come on in.´ Elizabeth the taxi driver gestures for me to sit down and close the door. ´So, Big Valley Campsite?’ she asks. Without waiting for an answer, she puts the car in gear and drives off. We leave the cosy city of Margaret River recoiling in the hind mirror and head 12 kilometres out of town. Yesterday, I took a bus from Esperance to Perth, a drive that lasted for 10 hours. I tried to get some sleep in an old hostel. However, a Scottish fellow on the top end of the bunk bed kept twisting and turning, so I fled out of bed and wound up talking to an Irish guy on the hostel balcony, suffering from insomnia as well, at 3.30 in the morning. He just wanted to go home. He ... read more

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God has sent another angel on my path and her name is Jenny. As soon as I see her, I notice her dark complexion, her fragile posture, her long, curled black and white hair, her soft eyes, and the teeth missing from her smile. Jenny welcomes me into her home. She offers me a bedroom with TV, the use of her laundry machine and unlimited access to her veggie-stuffed fridge. She´s so generous, I can hardly bear. Jenny is Rennie´s mother in law and while her husband is away working in the mines, she is fond of enjoying some overseas company. There is a catch though, I have to teach her all I know about photography. A task I´m more than happy to take on. After Rennie and I had a beer and chat near the ... read more

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Last night around midnight, a heavy freight train energized the gated campsite here in Ceduna. Everyone woke up by the heavy pounding as it rolled into town, shaking the Earth underneath my thermarest. The sound died, and I fell back asleep. Well, for a little while. ´Mrraauww´. A black and white kitty is standing in front of the entrance of my tent. It scratches the fly. Oh no. ´Go away, kitty. It´s two in the morning, go!´ I say with a tempered voice. But the cat doesn´t get the message. It jumps away from the tent and then towards it again. It´s clearly having fun, meowing and pawing at my tent. After an hour of frolicking around, it finally leaves and I can get back to sleep. It´s five am and the first rays of sun ... read more

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During my last night in Port Lincoln, a fierce wind blows the waves up high and my tent to its bending limits. It´s 00.30 and my tent is cracking. I can hear the fly tear. I have two choices: I either stay here until my tent gets blown to bits (and it will!), or I pack up now and head for safety. I do the latter. In complete darkness and hard blowing winds, I put all heavy items outside the tent, take out the pegs and drag everything to the campsites laundry room. I haven’t even settled in yet, and rain pours down from the sky in endless quantities. I spend the rest of the night in between four washing machines. I hear the waves crash on the beach, the rain beating on the sand and ... read more

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People keep telling me I should try to have fun. They say that what I´m doing is a good thing, but I shouldn´t forget to enjoy myself. And perhaps they´re right. At the moment, I´m in between writing assignments and have no idea where to go. One thing I do know, I need to get out of Adelaide. There´s enough noise in this city to drive the Dalai Lama to insanity. So, at 05.20 this morning, I wake up, grab my backpack and take a shuttle bus to the airport. A tiny propeller airplane flies me to Port Lincoln, a settlement located on the southern shores of the Eyre Peninsula. Finally, I’ll have some peace and quiet, finally I’ll go and do something fun, relax, enjoy myself. Finally, except... I’m freakin´ terrified. Port Lincoln is not ... read more

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In my last blog I mentioned the dream I had during my last night in Tasmania. My whole family suffered from cancer. Even dad, who, in my vision, was still with us. When we found out that even my stepsister was dying, my father accused me of not accepting my step-family. In the end, we all committed suicide to save ourselves from suffering. Now, this dream has kept my mind occupied. What bothers me most, is my father´s accusation towards me. According to him, I revolted against my step-family and was not accepting towards them. In real life, before he died, my father accused me every now and again of doing the same thing. However, his blame couldn´t be further from the truth, and in my dream, as well as in real life, I just didn´t ... read more

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February 8th 2011
A wise woman named Sidonie Gabrielle Colette, once said that ‘it's so curious, one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses.’ It true. This is how mourning works. This is the reality I face. After my breakdown in Robertson, I slowly got back on my feet again. I had a nasty fall, I argued with Stephen, but still, I was coping and doing well. Even in the furnace of Sydney, I managed to entertain myself and get some work done. Until, as I wrote at the end of my previous blog, I made the ... read more

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´Hi there!´ Denis opens the door of his dodgy, blue Daihatsu. A tiny grey and black Schnauzer greets me with licks and tail wagging. I get in. ´I need to stop by my house first because I forgot my shoes´, Denis says and he drives on. Denis, a sturdy, bearded man in his sixties, is Robertsons local photographer and fashion icon. His stained, red sweatpants hang loosely around his skippyball-sized waist and reveal a pair of worn-out and downy Gucci underwear. The outfit is topped by a blueish/greyish t-shirt stretched to its maximum extent. Anyhow, Denis is probably one of the sweetest people I´ll ever meet and a walking encyclopedia as well. He knows every tiny plant, every bird call and every minuscule leave we come across. Denis’ main specialty are orchids. ‘They give off this ... read more

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I look at the stars above me. The milky way shines bright in the night sky. God, I feel so lost right now. There’s a studio behind, about half the size of a football field. Inside, the studio is crammed with painting - screaming, red and yellow, chaotic paintings of naked men and women. Between the blank and dyed sheets, paint brushes, two swing sets and worn out couches, people are enjoying a part. All musicians, architects, photographers, artists and so on. Some play the guitar, some have one or two drinks too many, and others again pass around ´doobies´(joints) to add to the spontaneous celebration. Normally, I would have loved this kind of event and all the people it attracts. But now, I’m suffering from a sensory overload, and the lights and sounds are just ... read more

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