12:06 26.01.2008 Sitting in the train on the way from my mom to my hometown. Had many nice moments yesterday and today and most of the sad thoughts were blown away!!! When I talk to my family or friends about my trip and my projects, everything sounds so unreal, so surreal, like bubbles...quite coloured and nice to see but so facile and soft... The next 2 weeks I will have again looooots of work and projects. No break, no rest but much joy after having my last examination and finished my projects on thursday. After that I can follow up to [View Full Entry]

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...and so I feel today! Yes! Each day left, my dreams come more and more true. Of course, there are many things before but time runs rather quick and so it feels like to have "one more to sleep" and then time is over!!! I have put some things into my case and I can see it all the time when I am at home in my room. Wuuuuuuuaaaaaaaar...that makes me crazy. Yesterday evening I was searching things, thinking about "what is really necessary to take with" and making some plans. Travel-brainstorm ;-))) Just have to prepare myself for the day. [View Full Entry]

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OK! Just 35 days til departure. I put my case on a stable place in my room so that I can start to collect necessary things. Everything works - will get my passport and visa within the next days, flight is booked and ticket safe! Wooooow. How long did I dream for that moments? I should be only happy and feeling like fallen in love but instead of this I am quite nervous and sometimes a little bit sad. Why? Don´t really understand myself. There are other themes which make me also think. The next 35 days, I will have lots [View Full Entry]

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today i am quite tired and a little bit depressive. don´t have a real reason...maybe too much to do or stress or something like that. but there are also good news! i am starting to complete my equipment for guinea. just thinking about "how to pack", talking with some people about my project and about the political situation over there. hope it will be peaceful and quiet when i will arrive in a few weeks. so much to do until then... [View Full Entry]

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had a relaxed day with some medicine checks and something like that. could sleep long...that meens for me: till 8 am...! okay. have had a nice day, thought about stuff i have to buy. would like to have a special type of mp3-player named creative zen ...wow!!! it´s so cool but i have to look if there is a possibility in my budget ;-). there are so many costs for the journey and preparation...i have to wait and see! tomorrow will be a looooong working day at university. countdown is started. first for my last examination on next monday. and also [View Full Entry]

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all right. had a short but good night and woke up with a smile on my face. had just a call with berlin about my visa and everything seems to be okay, so i will get it perhaps this week!!!! a new step. the next days i will get the vaccination against yellow fiever and even another one. and since tomorrow i have to start learning again and finish also some film projects. today i would like to have a little bit time to relax and do something nice. [View Full Entry]

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am just relaxing at home, calm down a little bit and hearing a special song which is connected to someone...39 days...thats not quite a long time. when i try to sleep, i lay down in my bed, thinking of africa or just feeling it...my body is prickling and my head is in trouble. there will be some people, i will miss very very much and that makes me sometimes sad. but only in a few minutes, in dark and stormy nights like today, when a little bit fear is also in my room. then there are a bit of anxious feelings. [View Full Entry]

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So! My exam was today and I even don´t know, if I had passed or not. But I am not sad about because it´s over now!!!! I am really happy to forget that damned stuff for min. 6 month...tooo theoretical all that. But in my documentation lesson this evening I saw a film about and from West Africa. It was a really strange film but I loved it. I am so excited and so curious to see all that stuff live and colourful, smell all that strange things and see it. Taste it. Live in it. Discover new cities and new [View Full Entry]

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woke up after a short night. had crazy dreams about tv-spots and radio-clips. work is everywhere. i am really tired and bored of my exams. in 10 days they have passed and i can prepare only for travelling ;-)))) ... [View Full Entry]

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...time to quit. learning was a little bit successful - i will see it tomorrow when i have to write my exam. had long talk today with some guys about africa and my time in guinée - its every time so exciting to talk and think about. round about 40 days and i will be there!!!! good night! [View Full Entry]

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