23:22 05.02.2008 ...especially 22 days before departure just lying in my bed and hearing "the song"...we have a common song which we hear often before we say "good night". but the last 3 weeks, we had not often the possibility for this nice and weak moment... i am sometimes thinking about the time when i will leave for my supertrip!!! what will happen? will i see him once again before i will depart???? i would love it. but he also? mostly i think so, but sometimes, on days like today...i don´t know. we have had so much time before a few [View Full Entry]

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...can also be work! i am this weekend for a workshop at a friends house. have to learn about music, technic and studio-technic. its rather nice and i learned a lot in the past days!!!! yesterday we had lot of fun. not in the beginning. there were problems with the software and other technical things but later on, we were producing a song and had a lot of fun. i enjoy my time here and i am more and more excited to go tu guinea for doing this things. i didn´t hear anything from mr. someone - this morning i learned, [View Full Entry]

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...its weekend, and another day. the past days were very stressful and i needed time to relax. yesterday i went to the next place for having some workshop all around a music-studio :). this is quite important for me and my time in guinea. the evening yesterday was also quite nice. had a super dinner with some friends and after it, some nice talks :)...!!! the next three days include much work but i think for minimum the same as fun!!! had also a talk with some local guys. that´s rather nice but also difficult ;-). [View Full Entry]

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...is that i don´t understand. i fell in love before a few time but HE doesn´t know really how deep he touches me. yesterday we had that bad situation. i think that i was too sensitive to react cool and so i was little bit hysterical deep in my heart. that´s the reason why i think that it is all too much emotion at this time. at one moment i feel so exorbitant happy that it seems to explode and then within a few seconds - the world can completely change!!! my world. the next problem is, he lives in another [View Full Entry]

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...i was so happy the last two days and now its late night and i am really really sad. the whole things are too emotional. every day there are so much extreme peaks which make me crazy. one hour extremely happy and after it...no. not like that. but today - no, this evening, there was a bad situation...maybe i misunderstood something and i totally overreacted and after it, i only was able to cry. maybe my nerves are quite thin. its so strange to have all this feelings. its in a range of love, responsibility, being absolutely curious, nervous, anxious, busy...all [View Full Entry]

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wow - last examination over! next preparation phase started... but now the real (very nice) stress has started. have to finish some important projects at university until max. tomorrow...means, it has to be finished this night. next few days are crowded with work and workshops, dates with a dentist and something like that. my head is in trouble but i am really happy!!!! yesterday i danced and sang in my room at home, couldn´t believe that now my real countdown started. only 30 days and i will sit in my airplane. Guinea i am coming :)))) ... [View Full Entry]

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...for minimum 6 month!!! yeaaaaaaaaah! i´ve got my last examination for this year i think. yessssss. it was quite okay. i can´t believe it!!!! i cannot imagine, that ... wooooooooow!!!! i am really really happy. have much work for the next week but thats nothing compared with my examinations... :))) now i am free!!!! [View Full Entry]

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...has come. today is my last examination and will be very happy this evening when this stress is getting over!!!!!! have to finish different projects this week and some jobs also. much work but thats okay. after the 5th of february everything will be a little bit more relaxed - i hope so!!! just have to prepare and organize some things but the most complicated is finished then. the last days i had no time to make special preparations for the trip but i enjoy doing this in a few days!!! maybe its possible to visit some people to say good [View Full Entry]

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yeah!!! yesterday i´ve got my passport with visa back!!! this was the next step. now i have finished all the steps to get in: passport, visa, vaccinations (especially that one against the yellow fever) and at least - my ticket! at this point of my preparations, i feel again so excited and also so troubled and ... don´t know how to describe. today i have to learn for my examination tomorrow. so i must have very much discipline. yesterday i felt not well - probably because of that last vaccinations on friday. i was feeling cold, my head was hurting, everything [View Full Entry]

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13:29 26.01.2008 Okay - just changed the train, eaten something and now sitting here and watching "Ali" on my notebook. I should not think about that work I have to do at home...My head hurts a lot and I would love to sleep only. Have to see how I feel when I arrive at home! Too much thoughts in my head. So much wishes, so much love and warmth I feel. I think Africa will be the best time of my life!!!!!!! Some thoughts are difficult to describe, some feelings, some anything. Its more difficult to say it in english ... [View Full Entry]

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