so! come still from the doctors´and got my last injections. finished. the next step on my preparation paper is ready!!! heard yesterday stories about toilet paper or no toilet paper in guinea. i did not think about something like that. there is nothing like that available. whuaa... i was really silly not to think of it. today i will start with lariam for the malaria prophylaxe. hope everything will be fine and that there are no bad feelings beside. i have lots of things to do before departure. the more i think about the more i remember...oh oh ... nothing with [View Full Entry]

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the only date which was possible to visit mister right, is not possible. he has no time :((((( i was so disappointed when i read it. he wants to see me but there is no time for it. damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [View Full Entry]

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...tried to structure my files on my notebook to reorganize but i do so much things but not what is really important. have ironed my clothes for the trip which are fresh washed, wrote some mails and searched things in the internet. after it i worked on my liveSpace ... damn! i have to do other things. okay. i will try to make a new start - but ... i am a little bit tired ... its short before midnight. the last month i developped as a night-woman ... [View Full Entry]

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yeaaaaaaaaah!!! i´ve finished my last project for university and now every damned things are over. hopefully ;-)))))... so i have slept at my little siesta today. nice feeling. was outside in the sun at daytime. long time ago. so tomorrow i will clean up my room, move my suitcase into another room to have more space for preparation and sorting that stuff i want to take with me. i have to make a list with things i have to buy. until now i cannot believe, that its only a few time until i will depart!!! less tan 18 days. wooooooooooooooow. how [View Full Entry]

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...he has written to me. it was like i have thought: he was not at home. he went out to some bars...the other things i didn´t ask for. .... maybe another woman or not. don´t know. but we have no relationship and he doesn´t know about my feelings... damn! okay. we had a very very nice talk together and i am feeling quite happy right now. have even laughed so much !!! thats rather nice. maybe i will visit him before departure. we "talked" about not directly but between the sentences ... oh it would be so great! [View Full Entry]

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yessssssss...good things first!? had a super conference call with my partners and the boss of the radio station i will visit in guinea. its rather nice to make some plans ... reality comes!!!!! and it feels veeeeeeeeeeeeery good. we have made some plans and it seems to be creative and succesful. hope it will be stable. if yes, we can reach a lot! but mister right didn´t answer. what´s up with him???? i think more and more that he is not at home but has left his computer online. maybe something like that. cannot imagine that he still doesn´t answer to [View Full Entry]

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mood is changing every few hours! nothing heard from "him" ... asked him yesterday per mail what´s up or if i only think or feel that something is wrong but didn´t get any answer. now he is online but he doesn´t answer. maybe he is not at the desk... it makes me sad. it starts so romantic, so nice and now... but maybe its totally different as it looks like. what shall i do???? i decided today, only to look forward and to my trip. but its difficult for me because i am so often thinking of him. what´s up now??? [View Full Entry]

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yessssss. today in three weeks i will prepare for my flight! i cannot really imagine. the last weeks i worked very much and slept less so that i lost a little bit the feeling for reality. its a little bit surreal, strange but even extremely nice to know that the long time of waiting will pass through. 3 weeks. thats nothing!!!!! today is hopefully the last day with so much work like the past weeks. have to finish my projects. tomorrow i will have a conference call via internet with the guineen guys. we had the same last week and after [View Full Entry]

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...might say, nobody knows what will happen. but the last days, i had so much stress and so strange experiences; its hard to find the right way not to adopt the sadness. i try to take everything easy but sometimes it is not! had trouble with my father, my sister doesn´t talk to me since nearly 5 month, what do i do wrong? mister right is maybe not mister right ... is he????? it would be so nice but for all things I DON´T KNOW what´s up!!! i wrote him even a few sentences and asked him about ... - is [View Full Entry]

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just came into my flat and met my roommates and two new ones. the one will take my room while i stay in africa!!! yes. nearly everything is arranged. i like my roommates very much and this evening was quite nice. i will miss them a lot!!!!!!!! really - i will have so much new things around me. new people, new imaginations, new everything. mr. someone is ... i don´t know what he is! sometimes really romantic, easy and very lovely and sometimes so far away. we don´t talk about that situation. i fell in love ... but does he also? [View Full Entry]

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