http://www.travelblog.org/Bloggers/Lilli/ Travel adventures in journals and photos from Lilli en-us Thu, 10 Dec 2009 00:54:02 +0000 Thu, 10 Dec 2009 00:54:02 +0000 dont know now reality comes to me met some friends and got nice sms from my loving mister right ... now i feel that i will depart very sooooooooon http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/blog-251160.html TOMORROWthe word no the day I have ever dreamt of Within the next 26 ours I will leave my flat for a looooooooooong time to make my life in AFRICA. All of my visions have come true. Okay not even all but most of them. It was so hard to find the way over there but now it will be truepacked my things yesterday...in and out...had too much weight... had to throw out things but now it se http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-250920.html i am really excited i am nervous...feeling strange...absolutely enjoyed...unstructured...troubled...anxious...sad...happy...allllllllllllllllll of this in one human beeing is that possible can you exist with such huge feelings in you yes you can. its difficult but it worksjust preparing the last things. yesterday i had much trouble with my camera equipment and missing feature http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-250528.html didnt do much of that things i wanna do. but this is equal for me. i am feeling much more better then the last days yesssssssss...i am looking forward to my trip to guinea. i am excited warm waves of joy are browsing through the whole body and make me feeling very happy. just missing my sweetheart didnt hear from him today because he is on a mission ... hope to hear tomorrow...our dat http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-249693.html after laying the whole day on my canap because i felt very sick i got an energy flash in the evening. until 3.30 h am i put some things into my backpack and suitcase. tried how much weight each other. what do i have to take what can i leave here i am getting really really nervous. could only sleep for 5 hours althoug i took some herbs with valerian and some stuff like that to calm down and http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-249478.html i cannot believe that time passes so quick now... i feel excited but not in reality. my blood pressure goes up and down and makes me problems the last two days. too much pressure too much of all... my personal doc told me to RELAX yes i will do. arrived yesterday at my home and enoy to be finally here there are even many things to do but i feel not well these days. have migraine an http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-249244.html the real countdown started only less than 9 days until departure. i have tons of things to organize and nothing works really today. i have had lots of phone calls but didnt get the right persons or heard that they didnt do anything until now I only have 9 days to finish all that SHIT ... so. my lovely date seems to be invisible...one time he is super sweet sends my marvellous pictures http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-248259.html i am in a great chaos of feelings. was very busy and reached most of my goals on this weekend. today i was a little bit layzy but i needed it very much. wrote with some supernice people via messenger and had a relaxing time just for me while watching sex and the city. it was a girlsday yeah. rather nice. i prepared my computer for the trip. that for itself needed many hours i tried to clean http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-247300.html have much things to do at the moment. goals for the day1 having phone conf with the guys from guinea2 renew my notebook and install all necessary programs3 write a todolist with all important things i have also to doyesterday i had a nice dinner with my roommate. we had finally time to speak to each other and i told her about my fears and my joy about the trip. had a very bad experience yes http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-246774.html hello all you around the world happy valentine i never got some wishes on valentines day. but this year i got some nice very nice. only mister right is silent. but i know the reasons...its okay...hehehehi decided to look only forward and only positive. there are so much nice things in my live no reason to be sad or depressive you can change everything within seconds with a positi http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-246177.html ...tried to structure my files on my notebook to reorganize but i do so much things but not what is really important. have ironed my clothes for the trip which are fresh washed wrote some mails and searched things in the internet. after it i worked on my liveSpace ... damn i have to do other things.okay. i will try to make a new start but ... i am a little bit tired ... its short before midnig http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-246020.html the only date which was possible to visit mister right is not possible. he has no time i was so disappointed when i read it. he wants to see me but there is no time for it. damn http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-245931.html so come still from the doctorsand got my last injections. finished. the next step on my preparation paper is readyheard yesterday stories about toilet paper or no toilet paper in guinea. i did not think about something like that. there is nothing like that available. whuaa... i was really silly not to think of it. today i will start with lariam for the malaria prophylaxe. hope everything will http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-245864.html ...he has written to me. it was like i have thought he was not at home. he went out to some bars...the other things i didnt ask for. .... maybe another woman or not. dont know. but we have no relationship and he doesnt know about my feelings... damnokay. we had a very very nice talk together and i am feeling quite happy right now. have even laughed so much thats rather nice.maybe i will v http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-244574.html yeaaaaaaaaah ive finished my last project for university and now every damned things are over. hopefully ... so i have slept at my little siesta today. nice feeling. was outside in the sun at daytime. long time ago. so tomorrow i will clean up my room move my suitcase into another room to have more space for preparation and sorting that stuff i want to take with me. i have to make a li http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-245258.html yessssssss...good things firsthad a super conference call with my partners and the boss of the radio station i will visit in guinea. its rather nice to make some plans ... reality comes and it feels veeeeeeeeeeeeery good. we have made some plans and it seems to be creative and succesful. hope it will be stable. if yes we can reach a lotbut mister right didnt answer. whats up with him http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-244467.html mood is changing every few hours nothing heard from him ... asked him yesterday per mail whats up or if i only think or feel that something is wrong but didnt get any answer. now he is online but he doesnt answer. maybe he is not at the desk... it makes me sad. it starts so romantic so nice and now... but maybe its totally different as it looks like. what shall i doi decided today only http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-244228.html yessssss. today in three weeks i will prepare for my flight i cannot really imagine. the last weeks i worked very much and slept less so that i lost a little bit the feeling for reality. its a little bit surreal strange but even extremely nice to know that the long time of waiting will pass through. 3 weeks. thats nothingtoday is hopefully the last day with so much work like the past weeks. http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-244048.html ...might say nobody knows what will happen. but the last days i had so much stress and so strange experiences its hard to find the right way not to adopt the sadness. i try to take everything easy but sometimes it is nothad trouble with my father my sister doesnt talk to me since nearly 5 month what do i do wrongmister right is maybe not mister right ... is he it would be so nice but http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-243977.html just came into my flat and met my roommates and two new ones. the one will take my room while i stay in africa yes. nearly everything is arranged. i like my roommates very much and this evening was quite nice. i will miss them a lotreally i will have so much new things around me. new people new imaginations new everything. mr. someone is ... i dont know what he is sometimes really http://www.travelblog.org/Europe/Germany/blog-243954.html