Sooo...

Listening to:
Let My Love Open the Door (Dan in Real Life soundtrack)
Alive (Sa Ding Ding)
One Blood (Junior Reid)

Reading:
The Help (Kathryn Stockett)

When I went to lunch yesterday, it was a bright sunny day, at 2pm it was cloudy, incredibly windy, and raining. Luckily, by the time I finished work the clouds had parted, but it was still chilly. I biked to yoga via a new path. It was no fun. There were so many stop lights and I ended up biking on bark for a few minutes, which is really difficult… Then I hit a dead-end and had to jump a curb. I went home by my normal route, which was a comfort and easy and people-less. I want to discover a path that is less populated at 4:30… I am afraid to go the path with the huge hills; not because I can’t handle them, but that is the direction the construction was moving. The thought of heading up or down a hill and having the sidewalk just stop makes me frustrated just thinking about it.

I’m going through a phase of zero confidence with my Korean. I am not making time to practice, so my vocabulary is not expanding. I’m just sitting uncomfortably hoping that something will click and I’ll get back my confidence. I’m not sure exactly what happened, but my ability to comprehend is just seriously lacking. I have gotten into the habit of not listening to what people say and just making assumptions. So I end up feeling like a jack-a**. I can’t explain why I am doing it. I think I want to be farther along than I am, so I am pushing myself. Then conversely, I will listen and not understand every word, but understand the gist, and yet when I am asked to respond, I am not sure what to say in reply, so I look like I don’t understand, which frustrates me also. I just need to breathe.

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